Recovery Day 4

SO. I won't be posting every recovery day. I promise. Just the beginning part is where I discover things are different.

Kiernan has been sick with croup, which has been a nightmare for Bryan. If it weren't for the ward (our church group) and friends bringing dinner this week, I don't think we'd be eating at all. However, it seems tonight Kiernan is finally taking a turn for the better as he's acting more like his normal self (as he sneaks in M&Ms that he spilled and we can't find every single one of them).

Today I had a chance to go outside, and I wanted to for two reasons. 1 - I hadn't left the front door since Monday. This is very unusual for me to go more than one day without going outside. I was getting anxious to get outside again. 2 - Kiernan needed to go outside for Bryan's sake. So I took Kiernan outside with me.

The first thing I noticed: Holy lightheadedness. It never went away. So I'm assuming I'll feel like this for awhile. I texted my sister and asked her if that's how it felt for her as well. She said it did. I seriously felt like every time the wind blew, (just a breeze) I could easily fall over. So weird. So I sat down in the shade. Kiernan lasted about 15 minutes outside before he wanted to go back and see "papai" again. I was done being outside too, it was pretty warm :). But that outside experience alone made me realize just how different I feel over all mostly dealing with the lightheadedness. I thought it was just maybe the stuffiness of the house or not getting out, but nope, I really am just that lightheaded.

Before I went outside. I think I spent about five minutes looking for my hearing aids. I wonder when that habit will die. Then I realized I couldn't, because I had just gotten dizzy and remembered even if I could hear with them on, no way they'd go on right now. My ears are still swollen and my head is still sore. So I went outside....man was it quiet. There were two neighbors out there. One lady with her young baby, and a couple out by the bench. Normally I can hear kids out there with my hearing aids on, birds, trees rustling (if it's windy), and Kiernan saying ball, hot, ah ah, no, wheee, or something. Today...Nothing. So bizarre. It hasn't really affected me in a negative way yet, other than that I wish I could help Bryan throughout the night with Kiernan as I know he's not sleeping through the night. It's just....bizarre.

A few people stopped by today to drop of lasagna/soup/home made ice cream. I missed the lasagna person (sorry Becky), and the soup person (sorry Sheila). However, I saw two neighbors who dropped off the ice cream. This was the real test to see if I could understand anyone. I felt for the most part, it wasn't too bad. I definitely had to rely on Bryan though to help me understand that we needed a bigger bowl for the homemade ice cream they made, etc.

I still fear that I talk too quietly or too loudly just because I cannot hear the volume of my voice. That'll just have to wait a few more weeks right?

Oh yeah, nothing looks different from the last pics I posted. Just a swollen face, and the two ears with the white strips. That's it. Hence, no picture updates :)