work

So i'm teporarily working in an office for right now at the least, and my computer that they have se tup for me just won't work with what they have. So I'm using a computer that a co-worker has and is gone for the next little while. This means I'm no longer in my own little office, and am in a big office with two other people. I'm on my break right now so I could hurry and vent. They both talk on their cell phones ALL the time. It drives me crazy. They are here to work, being paid on a salary or hourly to work here, and all they do is talk on their phone. they could get SO much more work done and cause a lot of people (including me) a LOT less grief! BAH! Stupid people mixing personal business with work business. bleh
done venting
oh and 
Happy Halloween! :)

Tiredness

I'm sitting at work in a very small office, so i can listen to music and stuff. Anyway, my door is slightly open, and I've been seeing my coworkers from downstairs walking around all over the place. Apparantly there's a water leak downstairs, but they acn't figure out where it's coming from since there is no leak up here....(hmm maybe it's the toilet stuff...ew). Anyway, the office is right at the end of the hallway where the other end is a door to the stairs going downstairs. They're up her elooking for the leak in the hallway that I can see, so there's a part of the ceiling pulled down with a ladder there. one of the coworkers, i guess, forgot that the thing was down, and wasn't looking when he turned the corner.....*snickers* he ran into it and bumped the ladder over. I did have the courtesy to ask if he was ok first before I started laughing (I only started laughing when he did). That was my entertainment for today, and it's only 9:30 AM....but it was funny, I can't stop laughing, that's my sign that I'm too tired/drugged up

Goodbye Sissy

After several operations and surgeries, my dog, Sissy, has to be put down. Her nerves went crazy, knee started bending weird, stitches popped, doctor tried all that he could, she has to be put down...I'm so sad...maybe that's what's been bothering me...who knows

Missing things

I'm having for the first time since I got married (ok it's only been two and a half weeks) where I've just been missing stuff. And it's not cause I'm married, naturally I miss my family, a lot. Knowing I'll be away from them for half of the holidays is really hard, especially since we make a big deal out of the holidays, a HUGE deal, and no one does it like my family, so...yeah, with the holiday season coming up, I'm already starting to miss my family, but I so look forward to having a "first" thanksgiving as a married person same with Christmas and New Years, etc. 
I miss dancing, a lot. I'm listening to a lot of music that I could easily dance to, one problem, no room to dance the way I want to around here and all my CDs are in Heber, and I don't have a small boom box to just go and sneak into a raquetball room like I used to when I was feeling all blah like now. 
I miss the piano. I miss knowing I can still play the piano, I miss being able to play on it when I need a break. I think that's the hard part about living in a small apartment for me. No room for the extra stuff. I have a nice keyboard, but there's absoloutely no room for it, and definitely no room for my harp either or I'd use that instead of the piano. It's bad enough that I feel I have to clean int he morning and nights just cause the apartment is so small and I get claustrophobic (and I am OCD about tidying up). 
Don't get me wrong on this one, I love having a husband more than anything int he world and wouldn't trade it. I would never want anything else other than Bryan. But I still miss having girl roommates every now and then. The hard thing about that for me is, my friends always move on after a year, and I don't ever really get the same friends year after year. I think the longest I've held a friendship once I started college was a year and a half, and turns out, that friendship wasn't the best one in the end. (The friendship with Chance and Jenny is still going strong *crosses fingers*) I wasn't good at keeping friends in HS or middle school either. I had a best friend for most of HS yeah, but it still wasn't a good relationship. A lot of girls I interact with right now are in my major classes (only one class has not one, but TWO males in it), and at least 70% of them are single. They go off talking about dates and boyfriends and missionaries. I no longer have anything to say about that, and believe me, I'm glad. I just can't really talk to most of those girls cause A - most of them are 3 years younger than me (19 and that for some reason seems to make a huge difference to them since I'm in the "20s"), and B - I'm married, so that automatically makes me older. I guess the point of this pointless rambling part is, I wish I could have married friends that were closer, that I could just grab a lunch with or a dinenr with since Bryan works at night. (I also hate being home alone, I lock the door when I'm home alone, even if I'm really close to the door that I can hear someone, and even though I love in happy mormonville, I lock it cause I'm afraid my hearing won't pick anything up, and cause of weird experiences in the past few years at my apartment). 
I guess I just needed to get that off my chest. 
I'm happy, really really happy. Bryan makes me laugh and smile and feel good all the time. Just some things that I miss, just like Bryan misses Brazil, I miss my family, my music, my dancing and long for friends. 
I'm sure this seems petty and whiny or whatever else it may be, but I just needed to get it off my chest as I don't take to change well, at all. 
Just be sure not to get me wrong, I am happy :) More than I've ever been, and satisifed and content with so many things in my life, just being human and wanting a little more. :)

Sissy update

Sissy is the name of our dog. 
She is now out of danger for shock, she's lifting her head and drinking water now. 
her pelvis is in bad shape. One side is broken right where it connects to the spine, and the other side is broken all the way through the pelvis near the leg. The lower leg on one leg is COMPLETELY broken, and there are several fractures throughout the rest of her pelvis, it's the only part that got ran over. She will go through surgery for the weekend and will be back on Monday. She will be unable to function completely on her own for about a month, so we'll have to carry her outside and stuff for her to potty and eat. At least she'll live :) 

The story of how she got ran over. We live in a very big open area with very few neighbors, and our road doesn't go all the way through to the highway like most people think, so we get a lot of drive by people int he neighborhood. My grandma was coming home from work, the two dogs were out by the car following her into the driveway, a stranger had been tailing my grandma the whole way down the lane, and as soon as she started turning into the driveway, he stepped on it and swerved around her, just barely catching the back end of Sissy. Bumped her out so she fell then ran over her back legs with the back tire. He kept driving down the lane, realized he couldn't get to the highway that way, and turned around, and barely slowed down and shouted out a cross apology and sped off.

At least she's alive.

Sissy :(

No matter how ridiculous this sounds, I mean it sincerely. 
My dog/puppy, well the family dog/puppy just got ran over a few hours earlier. And it's not looking good, she's not dead, but she's not getting a bright look into the future either. She was in too much shock tonight for them to do anything with her such as x rays and stuff. so if you could, and if you take this seriosuly and not laugh, keep her in your prayers, she means a lot to the family and to me and I know to bryan as well. She;s a great dog, and not even a year old yet (this month is her birthday i think). 
so yeah, prayers are welcomed.

mrs mulholland

wow...

October 7th, 2005

15 hours and 10 minutes until I'm officially Mrs. Mulholland.......*DANCE* YAY! :)

mmm hmmm

and I get married Friday.
Holy cow, this seriously just hit me late tonight that I get married THIS WEEK. Not next week, not two weeks, but THIS WEEK. and NOT ONLY this week, but in three days! Holy smokes!
Despite previous post (Thought I had messed a relationship between two people, but have been comforted and come to peace with the issue, and lyssa, good job on the quote! I thought it was fitting for my situation:) not that extreme of course), I am extremely happy and extremely excited. 
Only downers?
Loads of Homework
I have a huge scab on my knee from when I fell last week. I fell HARD and it's not going away. 
I'm getting sick, I've been shivering violently all night long, though that has several factors to it, but I've been sneezing like crazy as well and getting nasty headaches. 
I still feel fat, BUT the positive about that, with all the stress lately, I've lost 7 lbs in the last three days, unhealthy I know, but it's definitely not on purpose, not when you see what I eat when I DO actually eat. 

Positive
I'm madly in love, more than ever before :D (cheezy I know)
Bryan and I have our apartment, most of my stuff is moved over. 
We've already started receiving presents and cards, makes it seem all the more real, but won't open them until after the wedding day :) 
I was able to get enough money to pay for rent and get things taken care of.
As I quote someone I am now "sporting g-lines". 
I've got someone who I know loves me unconditionally, and lucky me, he wants to be with me forever. 
I've gotten caught up with my homework for this week, just need to get Monday's assignments done (I have one big project done with that already, thank goodness). 
I did great on my performance final, and pretty much ok on a midterm, couldn't have expected more with the small amount of 30 minutes I spent studying for it. I just hate knowing that if I had more time I would have done better. 
Things are getting paid off for the wedding, things are getting more solid. The only thing, mom is having a very hard time finding a dress, I hope she can find one tmrw, seems like a silly thing to pray for for her, but she doesn't need anymore stress in her life than there already is. 
My sisters are so excited and that just makes it all the more exciting for me, they were both smiling and giggling with me tonight after I've had a very very long tiring exhausting day (and the day before and last night were very much draining my energy as well). 
Did I mention I'm in love? :)