Friday, December 11, 2009

Life decisions?! geez....I guess I am an adult

So, I got a new job, and I start January 11th. I'm very excited about this job. I'll be working part-time, getting benefits, and doing a job I've been wanting to do. I'll be what is called a Parent Infant Advisor, basically I'm an early interventionists for parents who have children with a hearing loss from ages of birth to three. It'll be fun.

Now...this job affects my schooling. Basically, I cannot do my K-12 student teaching in one semester and do this job. K-12 license is not required for this job, I'm doing what's required for this job next semester and summer semester. I've listed the pros and cons, and cause I'm lazy, I'm just copying and pasting from my facebook:

Pros of getting the K-12 license: more job opportunities, wider range of teaching availability, only one more class added on to my case load to get it (student teaching...but it's also a con), More flexibility in job areas if I move out of state since I'll have both the 0-5 portion and the K-12 portion for hearing impairment.

Cons of getting it: having to split the student teaching into two semesters instead of one due to the new job I just got, postponing graduation date (May 2011 instead of Dec 2010 as originally planned before getting job). It's not really my passion (0-5 is), and more time away from home and my family, more homework, more money put into education that I may not actually ever use since I prefer 0-5.

Pros of not getting the K-12 license: earlier graduation date (Aug 2010 instead of Dec 2010), availability to work full time sooner (it's a job where I schedule everything, so I still get to see my family quite often), get to see my family every day instead of part of the week, more time with Kiernan, less money being spent, I still have my preferred licensure area (0-5)

Cons of not getting it: less flexibility should there not be an opening for early childhood areas for me in the future, may run into some issues should we move out of state since some states don't recognize a difference between 0-5 licenses and K-12 licenses for hearing impairment licensure.

So folks, give me your input, even if you already have in some other avenue, I'd love to put everything into one place.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Kiernan's first birthday

First: Kiernan had his first year well child check.
He's off the charts for his head size (thanks to me :) )
He's 75th percentile for height
He's 95th percentile for weight

He had his chicken pox vaccine, MMR vaccines and both flu shots (seasonal and H1N1).

He had a great day on his actual birthday, then the following Sunday we went to my parent's house in Heber to celebrate it with the family. He ended up being incredibly sick that night, and very fussy, but we still had fun. My father put together a video of the night (and you actually see almost everyone in my family, we missed Brent and Tara a lot!). And yes, I made the cake. It's a monkey cake mold, but the decorating was done solely by me.

Here's the video :)

Friday, November 20, 2009

Happy Birthday Kiernan!

He's one year old today! Crazy!

His birthday:
From kiernan's birthday



One year old! pardon the not so cute picture, he was tired. and the hous only looks messy cause he *just* threw the mail on the floor :)
From 12-13 months


From 12-13 months

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Monday, October 19, 2009

Formula for a great weekend

Presents presented for 4 year anniversary +
1 night at homestead resort +
dinner for two at snake creek grill +
legend of sleepy hallow wagon ride +
Dairy Keen shakes +
uninterrupted sleep +
King size bed +
Fresh fudge +
Beautiful fall weather -
sick baby +
Grandma babysitting for 24 hours +
4 hour nap of dad, mom and baby together in bed =
A well rested husband and wife, and a happy baby.

Thank you Bryan, for a fantastic weekend and a wonderful gift.

Now it's back to life, reality and home. I almost want to cry.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

sick baby

This is just especially sad to me because Kiernan has never been really sick before. Today I woke up and got Kiernan up, he had a fever of 104.4, so I took his pajamas off, and waited ten minutes to see if it was because of the pajamas, cause I felt a little warm myself. it went down to 102, we waited longer, and it was still up, and his rash was getting worse, and spreading, and the bumps were getting bigger. He also didn't sleep well at all last night, woke up about every hour, poor thing. he had a stuffy nose throughout the night, but that's gone now. He's also had some pretty bad bowel movements the past few days. So we figured it was definitely time to take him in.

Turns out, no infections, or anything. looks like a viral thing that is manifesting itself as fevers and rashes. We're to keep an eye on him, if his fever spikes back up really high again, or if he starts getting sinus issues, then we're to take him right back in to get some flu thing to help prevent it, as those things probably mean he's getting the flu.

I just feel bad cause some of his rash bumps have ever blistered :( I thought it could be chicken pox at first, but it doesn't look like it so far because 1 - he's not itching anything, 2 - nothing has scabbed over at all (he's had a minor rash the past couple of days).


This happy little dude...
From 10-11 months


From 10-11 months


is a pitiful sick little dude.

From 10-11 months


From 10-11 months


Drinking some pedialyte to restore some fluids in him.
From 10-11 months

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Happy Anniversary

Today makes 4 years since Bryan and I got married. So much has happened since then that I cannot even imagine what my life was like before marrying Bryan anymore. It sure wasn't as good as it is now!

We'll get to actually celebrate our anniversary this year, but it'll have to wait until the weekend of the 17th and 18th since we are just *THAT* busy. I'm excited though, I have no idea what we're doing :) I don't even know what Bryan got me yet!

He, however, got his present early. He got a new ipod nano last week, and is loving it :)

Here's to eternity!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

I can almost breathe

Well...life sure has been moving fast for me this semester. I just don't feel like I've had any time to do anything...really. I definitely have seen a decrease of time in seeing Kiernan and Bryan. I always feel like I'm going in and out of the door. I come home from something, 10 minutes later I'm out the door. Basically, my schedule for Monday, Tuesday and Thursday looks like this:

Work 8 AM-10:30AM, come home, feed Kiernan, get things for school together, eat lunch, go out the door for field experience at 11:30, stay there until 3:15, come home, feed Kiernan or pump, leave at 4:00 to go to class, get home at 7:30, feed Kiernan or pump, do homework for the rest of the night, go to bed around 10 or 11.

Wednesday, I have no class at night, so I work instead.

Friday I have no class or field experience, so I take the chance to work from 8-5.

Quite frankly, I'm doggone tired. Especially after last week and this week. Homework has just been piling on, and it's been insane. I had 15 readings to do this week, and that many reading responses. I also had a language assessment/summary report due, a cognitive assessment summary due, and I was going to have my research paper due on Thursday, but my teacher heard I was out of town this past weekend and said I can turn it in a week late with no penalty. That took a HUGE load off my shoulders. I've also had two observations done so far in my field experience, and have one more on Thursday.

I went to my orientation for my Helen Keller Fellowship over the weekend in Biloxi, Mississippi. It was incredibly fun, and a major information overload. It was well worth it though. I met some wonderful ladies there, and enjoyed being able to talk with people in my profession who understood the different things that need to happen in the special education field. The hotel was awesome, literally right across the street from the beach, and the water was the perfect temp to go walking in. the best part of it all, I had my own room and got to sleep THROUGH THE NIGHT. I obviously missed Bryan and Kiernan, but man, that sleep was just wonderful. I'm excited to pursue this opportunity and continue to work these wonderful ladies.

My field experience has been incredibly fun. I definitely miss being in the classroom and/or working directly with kids. An opportunity has come up to do that as a job while in school, but I'll wait on details for that to see if it actually pans out.

Kiernan is now just over ten months old. He's so much fun! He's got eight teeth now, loves to dance (he dances to basically any music most of the time), getting braver with standing up for long periods of time now, laughs a
lot, sleeps a lot less, eats a lot more solids, smiles a lot, and is getting more curious everyday. :) He's really a great kid. I'll end this with a picture of him doing something I wish he would do more often :)

From 10-11 months

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Long week - cheering up post

My kid cheers me up, so I'm doing this.
I had major technology problems all day yesterday (I swear, everything electronic is out to get me, even my hearing aid gave up!). So I'm posting a couple (a few)pictures of Kiernan to make up for it, and to make my day a little brighter today.




Our little Mozart.
From 9-10 months


Ugliest face evAR!
From 9-10 months


"what? I'm chewing on a spoon...so?"
From 9-10 months


Tasting the O.J.
From 9-10 months


Swinging fun, the part he loves most is when I bring the swing up and let go...that's what this part is, I'm about to let go.
From 9-10 months

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Kiernan update

We took Kiernan in for his 9 month check up today (he's almost 9 1/2...dumb insurance problems postponed this), and he's all around a good happy healthy boy. He's 29 inches (90th percentile for 9 months) and 25 lbs even (off the charts for 9 months percentile wise). He's our big boy :)

He now has 6 teeth, four bottom ones and two top ones. There are two more top ones that are on the verge of cutting through any day now, so soon, he'll have 8 teeth. Insane. He's also learning to bite...lovely :)

He's a great multi-tasker (yes that's his toothbrush, a cheap vibrating one that came with our waterpik, and we both already have sonics, so we use that one with him..he LOVES it).
From 9-10 months


Enjoying bath time, it usually lasts for 20-30 minutes now, he just loves splashing around.
From 9-10 months


He almost looks like a baby vampire here, lovely biting teeth...
From 9-10 months


And his new game, he usually does peek a boo doing this, but if we're in plain sight, he likes us to say "up" when he goes up. I could learn from him and do this many squats..I might lose a few pounds if I do it as often/much as he does!

From 9-10 months

Friday, August 21, 2009

Helen Keller Fellowship

Over the summer I had the opportunity to take a crash course class from Dr. Nelson about deafblindness. I loved the class, and learned so much more than I ever thought I would. It was kind of a further testament to me that I really am doing what I'm supposed to be doing, and really love the field I'm in.

Throughout this class, I had the opportunity to have some fun with the class and the teacher. The teacher announced the fellowship to the class one day...giving me the eye every single time she made an emphasis on "a MASTER'S STUDENT" This is because I was the only one in the class who would be able to do it due to what year I was in the program, being a master's student and my major. So I talked to her after class, and she explained the fellowship to me (which I will do later). After asking Bryan during break whether I should apply for it or not, I decided to do it. There is no negative reason to doing it whatsoever, and I felt it was something I could and should do. After informing my teacher that I would love to take this opportunity, she immediately informed that she would write a letter of recommendation herself, even though we'd only known each other for three days. Talk about a little boost to the self-esteem!

So I applied, and got an e-mail on Wednesday from the secretary of the fellowship program. Turns out, I got the fellowship! I'm a 2009-2010 Helen Keller Fellow! I'm really excited. The basics of the fellowship, the requirements and the reason are all below, if you don't care to read about it, you can stop here :)

Basics: we need more qualified people to work with deafblind students. The fellowship helps train individuals. 10 people are selected, 1 from each university that participates in this program, and the universities are located all over the U.S. I will be going as the candidate from the University of Utah.

Reason:
There's a huge shortage of teachers, period. Imagine what kind of shortage we have for students with disabilities, especially for those students with not so common disability, such as deafblindness. In the past, people have tried to have a hearing impairment specialist and a vision impairment specialist work together to meet the needs of a deafblind child. Unfortunately, this didn't work as being both deaf and blind presents several unique challenges. A deafblind specialist is needed in order to meet the needs of the child. The goal of this fellowship is to increase the number of qualified teachers to work with deafblind children. The emphasis on qualified.

The fellowship program will help me understand and learn how to meet the needs of a deafblind child, and learn how to be a leader in the field to help others meet the needs of a deafblind child.

Anyone who completes the program receives a 10,000 stipend, and will not have to pay it back if they complete two years of instruction in a special education field after the fellowship (any field, especially sensory impairment). I will already be working off 6 or 7 years of working in a sensory impairment field due to the grant I receive for grad school, so this works out really well, as I can do it at the same time.

Requirements (6 of them):

1. Attend the Helen Keller Fellowship orientation. It's in Michigan, Oct. 1-3.
2. Attend 5 webinars. Basically they are seminars that are on the web, and allows all 10 of the fellows to interact and learn from the professionals presenting the seminars.
3. Attend the annual conference presented by the National Consortium for DeafBlindness (location and time unknown right now).
4. Attend a three day leadership and systems thinking seminary immediately after the conference mentioned in #3.
5. 2 week internship in my home state deafblind technical assitance team that allows me to see a variety of enviornments (poverty, rural and urban) that have deafblind students.
6. Complete 2 years of special education teaching.


Sounds good to me! When I'm done I'll basically have documented proof that I'm a qualified professional to be involved in the education of deafblind students (a certificate).

That means, when I graduate I'll have my MEd, with a license for Early childhood special education, a license for early childhood hearing impairment education (0-3 years old), a license for K-12 hearing impairment education (3-21 years old), and the Helen Keller Fellowship certificate.

All this after I've already got my state of Utah Early Childhood Education teaching license, and my BS in Early Childhood Education.


I think I might be done with school after I finish in Fall 2010....

Lagoon

I finally got to have my big summer fun yesterday with Bryan and my siblings and their spouses. So basically it was Bryan, me, Hilarie, Hannah, Scott, Michael and Stacee. At least for the first 8 hours anyway :) We all got there at opening time (11 AM) and went on a bunch of rides.

We went on Wicked first to beat any long lines that might have formed. Then we went on it again right after that. Then we did Spider, then we went on the Colossus then we were going on to the Wild Mouse (stick with me here). We're in line, just talking, all of a sudden Hilarie says she doesn't feel good...and passes out. I was already behind her ready to support her if she did pass out, and Hannah was in front of her. Both of us have had passing out experiences that we could see what was going on, and was just waiting for it to happen, cause there's no stopping it once it starts. We think it was just the combination of having nothing to drink for 1 1/2 hours, being past lunch time, the heat, and riding Wicked and Colossus and Spider all together at once, since they're all really crazy rides. Fortunately she felt fine after that, that we were able to go on any other rides we wanted to do....including the Catapult. That's right Hilarie and I both went on the catapult! It was really awesome, but I don't know if I could justify spending 20 bucks to go on it again. It was definitely worth going at least once though.

Bryan and I wanted to stay until closing, all the others were too tired or just sick of rides around 7, so they went home. We stayed until 10, and I thought I was gonna have to turn into a mother for Bryan to tell him that we could not do any more last minute rides (we went from the Samaurai, to the Spider, to the White Roller coaster, to the Colossus, and finally to the musical chair spinning thing all in one hour (not counting the line to Samaurai). It was insane, but it was way fun and worth it. This was my last big hurrah before diving into the next school year as I'll be in a school at least half day everday for the next school year.

Many many many thanks to the Keate family for watching Kiernan for 12 hours. They must have had fun with him (the zoo and a softball game) because when we brought him home, he was out within 15 minute and slept for 3 hours straight (this NEVER happens).

*sigh* school..here I come.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Tagged and bored at work, taking a break from filing

I was tagged

8 things I am looking forward to:

1. Lagoon on the 19th! (Ditto Hil)

2. The actual possibility of going on a cruise in August 2010.

3. Graduating, I'm so done with school. Been doing college nonstop since June 2001, I'll be done with my MEd in December 2010. Almost 10 years of college people, TEN!

4. Going home and spending time with Kiernan and Bryan

5. Getting a new car one day....who knows when.

6. Getting new hearing aids one day....

7. I dream of going to Lake Powell again, hopefully this year?

8. Having a full time job that I will actually enjoy (two more years, two more years)



8 things I did this weekend:

1. Finished my hated class.

2. Did tons of errands.

3. Went out to dinner with Bryan, twice. Yum.

4. Slept, I needed it.

5. Started rereading Harry Potter 5

6. Cleaned the house a bit.

7. Blogged...

8. umm....played with Kiernan


8 things I wish I could do:

1. Be done with school, RIGHT NOW.

2. Take a long vacation, RIGHT NOW.

3. Travel to Europe

4. Have two or three weeks to spend in Brazil with Bryan to full see everything we want to see.

5. Visit my brother and my friends back east

6. Find the time to practice the harp, piano and flute to get my skills back up.

7. Be an awesome photographer

8. Lose 40 lbs in two weeks.


8 shows I watch:

1. Law and Order

2. Law and Order CI

3. Without a Trace

4. CSI

5. Ace of Cakes

6. Food Challenge (I like the cake food challenges myself)

7. The Office

8. 30 Rock


8 places I'd like to travel:

1. Brazil

2. Scotland

3. Ireland

4. England

5. France

6. Italy

7. Switzerland

8. Norway


8 things I am grateful for:


1. My family (all of them!)

2. School (yes I want to be done, but it's giving me lots of opportunities)

3. my friends (though I do miss them all)

4. my job (the flexibility has worked out so well)

5. food...I'm obsessed with food, hence the need to lose 40 lbs

6. My religion

7. My health (though at times I wonder what the heck my immune system is thinking)

8. Sleep (Amen to this Hil)


8 people I tag:

1. Hannah

2. Bryan

3. Chance

4. Jenny

5. Ren

6. Jen

7. Becca

8. JaMay

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Kiernan

Baby laughs make my day, sorry about the video quality...it's from a point and shoot camera :)
http://picasaweb.google.com/lh/photo/cNxi2DR-4J9a1fIfsD6vKg?feat=directlink

Kiernan's new favorite toy
http://picasaweb.google.com/lh/photo/YZbyAE3LcV22CBeY9Kr62A?feat=directlink

Kiernan's typical way of talking, it takes a little bit to get there
http://picasaweb.google.com/lh/photo/t0d2gTQAh9DMCA4Sae7pNQ?feat=directlink

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Well...that's done

This past month has been insane. I feel like July consisted of only doing homework, and I'm sure Bryan would agree with me. The class I had for that month was insane, overly intensive, and at times offensive. But that's all I'll say about that, as I'm tired of being frustrated, angry or even talking about it. :)

The holidays were fun. We got to go boating with my family on the 3rd of July and on the 27th of July. Kiernan sleeps VERY well while we're in the boat if I'm holding him. It's like the biggest and bestest rocking chair ever. We enjoyed it a lot. Kiernan "enjoyed" the fire works. He didn't cry...but he sure did kick a lot whenever they went off, especially the whistling ones. Maybe he'll enjoy them more next year :)

Kiernan now has two teeth, and has for a couple of weeks now. He LOVES to talk, and can get very passionate while talking by "screaming". He started pulling himself up earlier this month on to furniture and the entertainment center (which has resulted in him figuring out how to get the DVD player to open).
From 8-9 months


He doesn't mind diaper changes as much anymore, as long as we're talking/singing/playing with him
From 8-9 months


He loves his gumball machine, thanks Grandma!
From 8-9 months


This link is a video of him...CRAWLING. He started full on crawling rather than creeping around a couple of days ago. http://picasaweb.google.com/lh/photo/xZOI4GsCg1ESFZ6sM6YnXQ?feat=directlink

He loves watching the flash go off on the camera and trying to catch it
From 8-9 months


He has inherited the unfortunate gene of my big butt
From 8-9 months


And he loves playing this game of hearing mom or dad making popping noises, and then doing them himself. Sometimes he starts it, and waits for us to do it. He thinks it's great! Below is a video of him doing this, while trying to crawl all over me. The end of it is a typical thing that he does now that he tries to climb on everything (he falls everywhere!).
http://picasaweb.google.com/lh/photo/mm_oCJTWaRx8PkNmbQLUkg?feat=directlink


The kid sure has grown a lot this past month.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Food for thought: deaf or blind?

Yes I know, this question has probably been overused, but it's basically what this post is about. Would you rather be deaf or blind?

So I've been taking this deafblind class, and it has been a wealth of very useful information, and opened my eyes to a lot more. I'm currently working on readings and a response journal. I'm in the beginning of it, so I have a ways to go, but I came across this quote that Helen Keller said:

"I am just as deaf as I am blind. The problems of deafness are deeper and more complex, if not more important, than those of blindness. Deafness is a much worse misfortune. For it means the loss of the most vital stimulus - the sound of the voice that brings language, sets thoughts astir and keeps us in the intellectual company of man. ...If I could live again I should do much more than I have for the deaf. I have found deafness to be a much greater handicap than blindness." - From a letter to Dr. J. Kerr Love, March 31, 1910, reprinted in the souvenir program commemorating Helen Keller's visit to Queensland Adult Deaf and Dumb Mission in 1948, Ackerman, 1990, pp. 191-192.

This totally floors me! Granted, I am deaf, and don't know any different how life could be. But this is coming from someone who has both disabilities. I wonder how many others feel the same way that has deafblindness. I would love your thoughts if you have any.

I cannot even imagine what it's like to be blind, especially because I have had to depend on my vision so much, despite what bryan may think about my visual abilities :) So to imagine that deafness is worse than blindness is a completely foreign thought to me, and something I cannot comprehend. I did grow up oral, and did struggle with language, and did feel isolated in a lot of social situations, and I still do feel isolated in some social situations today. But I have learned to adapt to those things, and it helps to have a husband who is willing to cue, or siblings who are willing to cue. My family also knows how to cue, and so I'm not as clueless as I was about conversations within the home anymore, and if I am, it's because of my own choice for not paying attention or reminding someone to cue if I didn't hear something.

Life without vision, I just cannot even comprehend that. This quote just really did shock me, and made me stop and think....can one really be worse than the other?

What do you think? I promise I won't judge or criticize what you think, even if you have no experience with either disabilities. I'm just curious as to what others reactions are to this quote.

Edited to add: Another quote for you to think about from an individual who is deafblind.
"I can only talk with one person at a time, and only if that person is within my reach. If I am in a crowded room, and no one is within three feet of me, I might as well be in a closet. It is very easy for me to misunderstand, so communication is often very slow." Robbins, 1983, pg. 3.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Ponderings

Religion related stuff, if you don't want to read it, don't :)

Sorry if the post seems a bit disjointed, I really just kind of wrote down my train of thought, which usually does not flow well. :)

It seems to me that a recurring theme that has been popping up over the past week for me is fellowshiping/social activity. I brought this up with Bryan yesterday and asked if he had been getting the same thing. He just gave me a "what the heck are you talking about?" look, so I figured maybe it's something that I personally need to work on, as it really stood out to me.

This past weekend we had an enrichment meeting, and I was going to give a thought, but in all the bustle, it just didn't happen (in other words, no one, including me, remembered). It was to be on fellowshipping. I found a GREAT talk by Elder Ballard from the 80s about Fellowshipping. There were two paragraphs I really liked. The first one:

"As disciples of Christ, we need to feel genuine charity for one another. As we do, new light will come into our own lives. This charity is essential in missionary work, but we must never allow ourselves to treat our neighbors only as potential converts. We have had the sad experience of seeing members of the Church who attempted to convert their neighbors and friends and, when they did not respond, withdrew their friendship and neighborliness. We must not be so anxious to share the gospel that we become insensitive to the feelings of others."

This really stood out to me, because I always took fellowshipping as a sense of being a missionary, and always trying to figure out some way to get people to come to church. After reading this, it was nice to know that sometimes just being a friend, friendly person/coworker is part of fellowshipping. However, I do need to work on the part of sharing the gospel with others. I have *NEVER* shared the gospel outside of people that I knew were already members of the church, and active members at that. I have no idea how missionaries do it. Yeah, I know they have the Lord with them, but dang....it still has to be hard!

The other paragraph that really stuck out to me:

"I encourage you to build personal, meaningful relationships with your nonmember friends and acquaintances. Interest in the gospel may come later as a natural extension of a good friendship. Invitations to participate in gospel-related activities often will strengthen relationships with acquaintances. If they are not interested in the gospel, we should show unconditional love through acts of service and kindness, and never imply that we see an acquaintance only as a potential convert. Members must understand that when a nonmember declines one invitation to investigate the gospel, he has not necessarily rejected the gospel."

That last line really stuck out to me. Just because someone doesn't want to hear about it now, doesn't mean they've rejected the gospel. Interesting thought, and one that actually does make sense to me.

Now what do I need to work on? Being social, being brave enough to discuss the gospel with others, members or not, and learning how to share it appropriately (not too much, not too little, etc). I definitely have to work on the being social part before I can do any of the other things. I think I need to to set a personal goal for myself to be more social. I am actually quite content with my life now, but that doesn't mean I'm doing it right. I'm just afraid that if people see that I'm trying to be social, they might think I have a reason behind it. I really don't other than that I realized I need to do this, and I want to know other people. I've always been shy, and I think a lot of it has to do with being scared of saying the wrong thing. I need to get over it, meet new people, and enrich my life and hopefully add a little something to their lives.

I also need to do this for my own son, so that he can learn how to be social and make friends as well. Heaven knows I'll want him to get out and be with friends as he grows!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Naked Ears?

Recently I've had this external ear infection (swimmer's ear), and seeing as how we're in between insurance companies, I can't quite get to the doctor yet. This means that I've been doing OTC stuff and home remedies. Now, I had one last week, my left ear, and left my hearing aid out for a few days. That seemed to work. The pain was completely gone and my ear was no longer swollen. Two days later it comes back, worse than ever. Last night, my other ear started hurting in just the same way. This means...no hearing aids whatsoever for the time being.

I have naked ears. It feels weird to go about my day without having something in my ear. This is natural to me, since I've been wearing hearing aids since I was 9 months old, or a year old, somewhere around there. Then I realize....this is "normal" if you will, to have naked ears. It's normal to feel the wind go in your ear canal. it's normal to have hair fall into your ear area and make it itch. it's normal for it to feel...empty.

I came to this realization about a week ago while I only had my left ear hurting. I had gone through the drive through at Wendy's (yes, Bryan, I bought myself a lunch one day, I'm completely guilty for it). I go through this drive through because I never have a problem with them, and I can see what I ordered on the big screen. I've never had an issue with them. However, this time, as I approached the speaker....I started realizing my naked ear was the closest to the speaker! Shoot! So I get there, and give them my order. Anytime the person would talk, I would turn my head so that I was basically looking backwards, out the window in order to hear what was going on with just my right ear. I hope people didn't think I was too crazy, and I felt so self-conscious about this that as I drove up to the window to pay, I was prepping myself to apologize for not wearing my hearing aid today. I open the window, and the guy acts like everything is normal. I found myself thinking "why isn't he asking me about me not wearing my hearing aid today?" Duh. It's not normal to wear hearing aids! Why WOULD he ask me about my hearing aids? he doesn't know I'm deaf....for some reason I found this a bit...unsettling. That's not quite the right word, but it'll have to do. It just felt weird to know that....I totally looked like a normal person to that guy that day. I looked like a person who didn't have a hearing loss, because, well....I had a a naked ear. And now, today, I have two naked ears. I feel very self-conscious about it.

Not having them in, made me realize how much i do rely on my hearing aids. Ever since Kiernan was born, I've worn my hearing aids 24/7, with the exception of being in the shower. This is not normal, I used to take them out every night before going to bed. Boy ,I miss those days ,but I'm too paranoid to take them out at night now that Kiernan is in his own room. Last night, I had to bring him into our bedroom because I just couldn't handle wearing one hearing aid at all, it hurt too much. It's not just Kiernan though, it's things that fall, hearing if Bryan called my name, hearing him snore to know if he's really asleep (which I never experienced before), hearing how loudly or quietly I talk. That last part, I'm definitely self-conscious about that. I know I have a tendency to talk a lot quieter with my hearing aids out because I'm paranoid about talking too loudly.

I definitely prefer to have my fully clothed ears, and can't wait to put my hearing aids back in again. I don't know how you all deal with naked ears with the empty space, wind blown, hair itching happening in there.

Friday, June 5, 2009

My laugh for the day

I apologize in advance if you have seen this already.

This (click here) video, so funny!
Just in case you need explanation, as it took me awhile to figure out. They're just describing what's happening in the video to the tune of the music, in place of the lyrics. Being deaf, I wasn't sure if the "new lyrics" were an approximate to what as being said or what, but then I figured it out that it was nowhere near to the original lyrics, instead it was describing what was going on in the video :)

Edit: For those of you who are deaf, there's a whole section where there are no lyrics shown. This whole time she's saying she's gotta go to the bathroom, and the guy tells her he'll open the doors for her. Then a whole bunch of stuff happens that I can't understand, then right before she sees the choir boys, she says "hey this isn't the ladies room"

Sorry that was all I could help you out with :)

Friday, May 29, 2009

Klutz much?

Boy, no wonder why I provide Bryan with some laughs.

Two days ago was not...the best day :). In class I had managed to get my pinky pinched into the three ring binder, during the lecture part, so I had to bite my lip and tongue to keep from yelling out. I now have a cut, and a blood blister from it. Ouch. I then proceeded to leave my phone in my friend's car, and accidentally left my keys in the lock of our mail box. No wonder I couldn't find them in my bag when I got home, at least Bryan was home.

Yesterday, kinda hectic.
First off, the parking lot was closed, so I had to park forever and a day away (not really, but just go with me here folks), and I'm not adjusted to the heat yet. Plus...carrying Kiernan around is not an easy task (he's 21 lbs!). Anyway, I went out to the car, went to a meeting at work, that was ok, took awhile to get it started, but glad I went so I could get some things checked off my to do list. Then went to the bookstore to pick up something for Bryan. Kiernan had just fallen asleep in the car seat, and I wanted him to keep sleeping, so I took the car seat with me...SO FREAKING HEAVY. Anyway, I go in and ask if there's an elevator to the book store. THere's not, only employees can use it. I swear, I'm not lazy, Kiernan is just really heavy! Go up the stairs, and I ask the guy for a clicker (that's what bryan told me to ask for) He looks at me like I'm nuts. Then Gets to the computer, and mumbles like crazy, fills out a form and points to two spots before I can even get a word in. SO I just assume what he said, and asked if the clickers were out, and I needed to fill out the two portions, and if he would call. He looked at me like I was stupid, well, it's not my fault if you mumble every word you say. Sheesh! So got there for...nothing :)
Went to the store, Kiernan spit up TWICE while at the store...lovely (meaning it spilled to the floor...) :) I forgot to bring a check I wanted to use, lovely. Went home, realized grocery shopping was a BAD idea...still had to park aways away. Made three trips, on two of the trips, the bags ripped open, the plastic bags that is. And cans fell out, while I'm carrying Kiernan. I say plastic, because I had forgotten our fabric ones, which were sitting right next to the door, so of course, I tripped over it, but saved myself and didn't drop Kiernan. WHEW!
I then realized I left my phone at work, and had to go back and get it, lug Kiernan back out, go to far away parking place, and go there, get it, and come back. As soon as I get back, my ear starts hurting. Lovely, swimmer's ear! YAY! I took Kiernan with me to water the garden, and somehow managed to splash mud onto his face, fortunately he didn't mind too much :)
Then this morning. Bryan needed a ride to class as was using as much time to study as possible. So I went to get the car while he was getting ready, and took Kiernan with me. I quickly slipped flip flops on and start rushing out the door. I get to about halfway to the car, before I started thinking "my left flip flop feels funny! Maybe it's coming apart...it shouldn't it's new..." You would think I would've looked down after thinking that, but nooo.. after a few more steps I looked down and see one blue flip flop (mine) and one black flip flop (Bryan's). Just as I turn around, Bryan's coming out the door holding my flip flop in the air looking for me. Man...I busted up laughing, it was SO freaking funny.


No wonder Bryan married me :)

I'm a monster, are you?

So summer semester has begun, and I'm already tired. But that's not what I wanted to blog about.

Since I am in an education major, almost every class I take there's some kind of "get to know your classmates activity." I can't tell you how much I hate these. I KNOW people panic when they're "forced" to interact with me after they see that I'm the one who has a transliterator (similar to an interpreter, but for cued speech, they're called transliterators). I can just see the wheels turning in their head and their eyes starting to widen, like a deer caught in the headlights.

Anyway, we had to do a meet and greet activity. We had two minutes to interact with someone we did not know, and for me, that meant ANYONE in my class. These girls are all elementary education majors, and getting their bachelor's. There's only two of us getting a master's, and I'm one of them. I'm also the only one in the SPED major. This means that pretty much everyone knows everyone...but me. The first girl was pretty cool about it, she's just as anti-social as I am, it was great :) The next guy....he's doing an intern, and isn't in a major anything, just doing this class for professional development. He's a SPED teacher....and well, talking with him is interesting because he doesn't finish his sentences, but he's a nice guy. Third girl...this is the typical response I get in these activities, and it always seems to get to me a little. Here's how it goes (please note this is a memory, so not everything may be said exactly the way it did happen, but it's a close approximate):

I spot a girl, make eye contact with her, and start walking towards her.
Girl looks around, realizing...too late, she's stuck with me walking towards her.
Girl twiddles thumb, looks down, looks up at me and gives a *HUGE* smile...a polite one if you will.
Girl sees transliterator following me.
I see small twitch in girl's expression.
Me - "Hi, my name is Emilie, what's yours?"
Girl - "Oh good! So you CAN speak and you CAN hear some."
I just stare at her.
Girl - "you can hear me right?"
Me - "No, there's too much background noise going on, and I really don't have that much hearing. That's what my transliterators are here for, to help me out :)"
Girl - "oh...well, you speak very well, and that's not ASL is it?"

Then the conversation leads into cued speech for the next minute or two, and we sit down.

I swear, I am NOT a monster. Even if I couldn't speak or hear, I'd still be able to successfully interact with you. I just hate knowing that I'm "imposing" on to another person's comfort zone because they know I have a disability, and aren't totally sure what to do. I admit, when I see someone in a wheelchair, it kind of freaks me out. I go through the whole "I hope I don't say anything offensive, I hope I don't make them hate me, I hope my legs are ugly today so they can say 'I'm glad I don't have HER legs'".

Then I have to remember the thought process I go through when people are meeting me. "Here we go, I'm sure she/he's nice. Let's see if they can get past the fact that I'm deaf." That's usually it, I then go on to "judge" you like any other normal person would.

So believe me, I don't notice whether your ears are ugly or not. I just see you as a person, just as I hope you can see me as a person.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Six months

That's right, he's six months! He turned six months on Wednesday, the 20th. Crazy!
Kiernan had has six month check up yesterday and the stats are:
20 1/2 lbs (90th percentile)
28 1/2 inches (95th percentile)
and his head circumference is the 90th percentile as well, though I don't remember what the number is.

A couple of pics :)

He was really interested in what I was doing and wanted to eat the camera.
From 6-7 months


I think this picture shows just how big his lips are
From 6-7 months


Our very big boy!
From 6-7 months


A rare photo where I'm in it as well
From 6-7 months

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Oy vey

I'm almost at my wit's end, anyone got any baby sleeping books for me to read?

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

My new favorite photo

I think this just kind of captures Kiernan as a whole. :) Plus it makes me smile.

From 5-6 Months

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I'm a wuss

In talking with my husband today, we talked about one of my greatest fears. Water. Yup, that's right folks. I failed swimming in middle school because I couldn't swim. I can somewhat swim now, but I still hate going under the water. I refused to go off of a diving board until I was...15 or so? That was also the only time I ever actually dived off of a diving board. Now, the only way I'll jump in to the water is cannon ball style, and even then I swim as fast as I can to the surface. I hate being dunked, hate it. My heart always skips five beats, yes that's right, five beats. This led to a discussion of the lake versus the ocean. Despite my fear of water, I absolutely LOVE boating. It's probably the number one way to get me to relax, and just breathe. Nothing like just flying over that water. My family likes to go to lake powell when possible (but man gas is pricey!), and I absolutely love it there. Now the ocean...I *HATE* swimming in the ocean. I love wading, I don't mind sitting in the shallow part of the ocean, but I *HATE* wave jumping, wave riding, wave swimming what have you with waves. When I turn around and head back to the shore, I cannot hear the waves coming, and thus, I go into a severe panic attack when I get caught into the undertow (who wouldn't? It's a hecka scary!). I also seem to be a complete gimp/wimp/weakling. The waves manage to knock me over...often, and I hate it. Thus, I hate swimming in the ocean, but I have no problem swimming in a lake (especially if I have a life jacket on...which you will see me in the majority of the time :) ). This is because lakes do not have waves. Oceans do, waves are scary, lakes do not, lakes are not scary. Simple. Bryan, however, still thinks it's completely bizarre that I love one and hate the other.

So tell me folks....what are you afraid of?

Friday, April 24, 2009

Walls

Today is a day of walls.
First off, Bryan decided to explain to me what "breaking the fourth wall" meant. It was a technique that was used in "Are You Being Served?" Man...I really do enjoy that show, so funny. (I've also enjoyed the only other British show I've ever watched, What Not to Wear. The American one just isn't the same).

So with that wall out of the way, and broken, here's my other wall. I'm done. I've been running into a mental wall for like a week, and I've just hit it, multiple times. I'm tired. I'm burnt out. Work wise and school wise, I'm tired. Family wise, I'm so loving it. On Monday, May 3rd, after 7:00 PM, I will officially be halfway through my program. That would be exciting right? Except...I'm already tired. Now, don't get me wrong, I do not doubt that I'm supposed to be here. I spent 6 years at BYU getting my bachelor's and my state teaching license. I'm now just finishing up the final leg of year 2 at the U of U getting my master's. I still have a year and a half before I'm done. five more semesters. this means I will have been in school, since graduating high school, for a grand total of 18 semesters. This coming from a girl who never dreamed or even really thought of going to college seriously. (that's another story, ever want to hear it, let me know and I'll type it out).

So this figurative motivational wall is not this never ending wall right? I can climb this "rocky" wall and make it to the top and just fling myself over and cruise on down right? I hope so. Well...I know so. I'm here for a reason, and it's never ever felt wrong, and it's always felt right. So, yeah, it's just gonna have to work out because I listened and came here. But boy....it ain't easy with a kid around, a cute one at that! I just want to stay at home and play with him all the time!

Now for literal walls. I've stubbed my toe a few times today. It hurt. I stubbed them on the corner of walls. I seriously have issues with walls (and doors). This all just made me think of the time where I broke my toe running into a wall. yes, trust me, it is very possible. Played racquet ball for the first (and last) time the night before the new winter semester started. Ran into a wall, broke my big toe, ended up on crutches since I broke it right where it connects to my foot, missed two classes the next day because I couldn't....crutch (I couldn't think of another verb to describe my transportation around campus) myself fast enough to get to the two classes....in the snow and ice. Then I met one more wall who I shall name the ground (yes I'm counting it a wall), in which I met, face to face, when my crutches gave out on me under some ice.

walls love me.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

5 months

Kiernan turned 5 months yesterday, where does the time go?

He can roll like a pro, stay sitting up for quite a few seconds, reach and grab things, purposefully manipulate items, scoot a little while on his tummy. He loves cereal and pureed bananas, and we can't seem to feed him fast enough!

these are cell phone pics because it was what was closest to me at the time.



From 5-6 Months


From 5-6 Months

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Kiernan

YEs my life does revolve around him :)


OMG! EASTER MORNING! SO EXCITED!
From 4-5 months


Kiernan's Easter Bucket
From 4-5 months

Seriously mom? Listerine? Gross.
From 4-5 months


This is a CHOCOLATE duck. White chocolate that's colored obviously, but it's chocolate. I did not realize it was chocolate, I thought it was a rubber duck all along. I was planning on giving him a bath and letting him play with it...good thing Bryan sniffed it and bit it before I did!
From 4-5 months


We got a jumper from my brother's family. He loves it, and fell asleep in it after jumping so much the first time he was in it!
From 4-5 months


A video of him falling asleep :)
From 4-5 months


A video of him enjoying the jumper
From 4-5 months


A video of him rolling like a pro!
From 4-5 months

Friday, April 10, 2009

Life in general

I'm tired. That pretty much sums up how things are right now :)

School is going well. Getting my projects done, slowly, but surely. I should be doing more homework, but I've reached a point where I honestly do not care at the moment. I'm hoping by Monday, I'll feel differently. don't get me wrong, i'm still attempting to do my homework :)

Work is work. But the two combined is what makes me tired, along with just keeping the house in order. It's not hard, at all, just time consuming, and I feel like I'm just running out of energy. :) It is coming close to the end of the semester after all. My last final will be on May 4th, then I don't have classes again until May 18th. I'm definitely looking forward to that.

We went to California last month for spring break to visit Bryan's mom and step dad. It was fun, and I'm glad they got to see Kiernan. I'm also glad I'm home. I'm not one to like being away from my home for a long period of time, I've always been that way. Most vacations I take, are ideally 5 days at the very most. I prefer about 3 days in general. I just like being home, since it feels like I never am home in between school, work and running errands when I am not at school or work. Anyway, it was good :) They have a dog, a great pyreneese (sp?) and he loved seeing Kiernan too.

From 3-4 months


That's the dog, Monty with Kiernan. It was cute, he was like that with Kiernan for a good portion of time. Abbey wasn't so cuddly with Kiernan, but she did like him too. She's just such a cutie!

From Spring Break



And I was going to type more, but Bryan just informed me that he's finally ready for bed (and Kiernan is asleep!).

We mostly just hung out with Bryan's mom and stepdad, and went out to eat a couple of times. We did get a chance to go to the postsecret thing they were having in a nearby town for free even. Just happened to be there at the right time. So that was fun, other than, we just relaxed at home. This is when Bryan got addicted to this show called Mad Men, I do enjoy it too. We finished the first season, and the second season i believe is playing now, but we've missed the first couple of episodes I think. Hopefully we'll be able to catch up soon....not that we really have the time anyway :)

Friday, April 3, 2009

Short post, but responses needed

So...
For May, June and July Bryan and I are taking summer classes. We've got our class schedules set. Unfortunately they're not flexible so we can't really work around each other's schedules. This means I need a lot of babysitting for this time. 23 days of it to be exact. This makes me sad, but you have to do what you have to do right? At least none of the classes conflict with work, so I'll only be needing babysitters on ALL of the days *I* have class, because they just coincidentally conflict with some of the days Bryan has class.

My question:
How much would you pay a babysitter to watch a 5, or 6, or 7month Old (since he'll be that old during those months) for 3 hours? 4 hours? that's how long it will be for most of the days, except for five days where it will be more than that. 2 days of 6 hours, and 2 days of 9 hours. if it makes a difference, the times will be 5-7:30 PM (2 1/2 hours, but would pay for a full 3 hours), 4-8 PM (4 hours), and 11AM-5PM (6 hours)and 11 AM -8PM (9 hours).


These days will be from May 18th to July 30th.


and if you're interested let me know, e-mail me and tell me what you charge :)
Thanks in advance.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Prayers

I woke up to three texts this morning. The long and short of it, my grandma is in the hospital. This is the grandma I basically grew up with being a second set of parents. She's in the hospital with some heart problems, and is stable now, But they don't know what's going on yet. Prayer would be appreciated. Many thanks.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Relief at last!

I was supposed to received the results to my qualifying exam anytime from two saturdays ago to last saturday. I still hadn't received it, until today. I am so glad, that the first word on the letter, in bold, said "Congratulations!" I may now start my graduate advisory committee, and continue to take classes (wasn't allowed to take some classes until I passed the exam). So, it's official, I am definitely well on my way to finishing school for another 5 1/2 semesters :) (I've done 4 1/2 so far!). YAY!

Monday, March 23, 2009

I love it!

more laughing :)
I have yet to figure out how to work with picasa/blogspot/my laptop, or else the video would be embedded here .


KIERNAN LAUGHING

Saturday, March 14, 2009

We're off, SPRING BREAK!!!!

I cannot even begin to say how crazy busy this week has been, and how glad I am it's over! Spring break starts officially for us as soon as Bryan is done writing his two page paper (which will probably be around 10 or 11 this morning :) ). We leave to go to the airport at noon, so he HAS to finish it before then, and give himself some time to at least do a rushed pack (I've packed what I could for the two of us, and everything for Kiernan). It will be interesting to see how Kiernan reacts to the flying, luckily it's just to California, so it won't be for too long.

We're going to the bay area to stay with bryan's parents. They haven't met Kiernan yet! So I'm really excited for them to meet him. :) We'll be staying there until Friday, the 20th. So that will give us time to do some fun things while we're there, but we'll see if we actually go out :)

See you when we get back!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

update with pictures!

From Drop Box


I love seeing Kiernan like this. He likes to be bare sometimes, especially with his legs. Sometimes we'll just unsnap the bottom part of his pajamas and let his legs be bare. It's so cute.

From Drop Box


I love seeing these two nap together. Unfortunately Kiernan woke up just as I snapped this picture. Oh well.

From Drop Box



This is seriously typical Kiernan. All smiles and looking so cute!


From Drop Box


He's been loving the exersaucer that we've borrowed from my brother and his family. 


From Drop Box


He's also been sleeping a lot lately because of his cold.  He's getting better though, and truly is a good baby when he's sick. I shouldn't have complained before about it. 

He's also picked up laughing, and it's just so darn cute. This video isn't the best at showing his laughs because he was so distracted by the camera. The night before this video, I had him laughing on and on and on for like 5 or 6 minutes straight. It was hilarious!

From Lots of Kiernan


We love him so much!

This is a test

 


Testing something out with picasa....let's see if it works :)
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