Viewing

so, I went to a viewing today. First one I've really truly seen. I missed Tad's viewing, but made it to his funeral. This friend that just died last Friday, I can't make it to the funeral so I went to the viewing earlier tonight. His name is Ryan. I've known him since fourth grade, and even remember the first time I noticed him in fourth grade. Sweet sweet guy. I secretly wanted to date him in hs, even though he was my best friend's boyfriend for 3 years or so. (late middle school/early high school). I lost touch with him after high school, naturally, we went different ways. I got a phone call on Friday from my mom telling me he had died earlier that day. I got the full story today. he and his dad were on their way to his grandfather's funeral. His dad was driving. Ryan fell asleep in the car. He never woke up. He just simply stopped breathing. He had trouble breathing earlier that day, but no one thought anything of it, neither did he. He died peacefully at least. He was 22, he was pretty young and he had A LOT of potential as an artist. I even saw of his paintings that he did when we were in 9th grade and gave it to my best friend as a present. I remember a lot of things with him. I didn't think it would be hard or weird at all to go to the viewing, until I got there. I've never actually met his parents, but they knew who I was, I knew his older sister, but was surprised she remembered me. I had no idea what to say. That was the awkward part. Then I saw him in the coffin. that was really really hard. Seeing someone I know, actually knew in real life and was friends with him and such, seeing him in there was really hard. I knew Tad better, but I didn't see him dead. The last memory I have of Tad was saying bye to me at the door as I walked out at his Lehi house. Ryan ont he other hand, I saw him dead and that was just really hard for me to deal with. Totally different feeling, especially knowing that, heck, he was only 22 years old. I didn't look at him for very long, but I saw some pictures as I was walking out where all of us friends were in it. Suddenly I just missed him and was sad I never got to really stay good friends with him. He was a good guy and I never thought anything bad of him. Then I thought about how nice it must be to not have to face the trials of this world anymore. At least he won't have to deal with that anymore :) That's the only thing that comforts me in this, and I can't imagine how the family feels. It was just sad. 
Amongst all this a few other deaths of people I know have happened recently as well. So it's just kind of a gloomy year along those lines. 
yeah....i dunno.....just hard...

Birthday

Bryan has a weekend planned for my birthday this year. (it's sunday). He won't tell me a THING about it. All I know is I have to pack for two days and that we're leaving tonight...hmm, not sure what's going to happen. But I'm super excited :) 

Oh, my cell phone DIED a couple of weeks ago. Well....Dad got me a new one for my birthday and I just love it. YAY for birthdays!

and I can only probably say yay cause it'll be my 23rd birthday....

Missed flight

Bryan missed his flight in Ny after having 230897234987 delays in Atlanta for his layover. He might not make it home until tmrw night. :( I feel bad for him cause he wanted to be home tonight so he wouldn't miss classes tomorrow as he already missed two days. Sad. that and I miss him..

I complain a lot

So, tonight is pretty much the first time I'm at home "sleeping" while Bryan is gone. he's in NY for the next 24 hours doing a red eye flight to do something for work. I can't sleep, I didn't think I would have this hard of a time with it. I tried to start sleeping about 2 hours ago, but haven't been able to yet. Which is very odd and frustrating, I've been exhausted lately and have done nothing but sleep when I'm a passenger in the car or whenever I simply lay down. and now....I can't freaking sleep! bleh. stupid. WE just got back from Idaho from visiting chancelot (sorry don't know how to use the username link thing) and his wife. It was great, we got there Friday night, and stayed until Monday evening, however, since the alternator was shot on our way home....we got stuck in Pocatello and had to stay the night. The car died while driving it, thankfully, near a hotel. The first hotel we went to was booked cause of the POTATO EXPO! *rolls eyes* Long story short, we got it fixed and got home around 7PM tuesday night when we meant to get home 10PM monday night. Then Bryan had to leave just fter 830 to catch the shuttle to the airport to do this trip to NY. So nonetheless, it was a stressful trip home. Ended up paying about 450 for the alternator to be replaced at a shop, and the hotel we had to stay at only had two rooms available (the others were full) and the room cost 89.99 (she gave us a 10 dollar discount so it was 79.99 instead). we also had a moronic driver take us from one hotel to the other, the trip ended up being about 15 minutes long when the other hotel was JUST ACROSS THE STREET. we just didn't get it. We got to the hotel and that lady was nice, and we were there for 10 hours, we slept quite a bit, we were tiiiiired. then woke up, had a mean mechanic on the phone, but had no choice but to go there. Had a wonderful tow truck driver have us follow him to the place. Dealt with mr jerky jerk and waited at the shop from 10ish to 3 or 4, I can't remember. During which we walked in the freezing cold (givse me the chills to think about it now) to get lunch at the only place that had food (chinese....in Idaho...interesting). Finally get out of there, and it's snowing quite a bit as soon as we get on the freeway, thus we're slowed in our travelling time quite a bit. Got home, had to run to Wal-mart and Bry's work to get stuff for the trip that he needs, came home, he changed and was out the door. I miss him a lot. that's all I have to say about that.