Missing things

I'm having for the first time since I got married (ok it's only been two and a half weeks) where I've just been missing stuff. And it's not cause I'm married, naturally I miss my family, a lot. Knowing I'll be away from them for half of the holidays is really hard, especially since we make a big deal out of the holidays, a HUGE deal, and no one does it like my family, so...yeah, with the holiday season coming up, I'm already starting to miss my family, but I so look forward to having a "first" thanksgiving as a married person same with Christmas and New Years, etc. 
I miss dancing, a lot. I'm listening to a lot of music that I could easily dance to, one problem, no room to dance the way I want to around here and all my CDs are in Heber, and I don't have a small boom box to just go and sneak into a raquetball room like I used to when I was feeling all blah like now. 
I miss the piano. I miss knowing I can still play the piano, I miss being able to play on it when I need a break. I think that's the hard part about living in a small apartment for me. No room for the extra stuff. I have a nice keyboard, but there's absoloutely no room for it, and definitely no room for my harp either or I'd use that instead of the piano. It's bad enough that I feel I have to clean int he morning and nights just cause the apartment is so small and I get claustrophobic (and I am OCD about tidying up). 
Don't get me wrong on this one, I love having a husband more than anything int he world and wouldn't trade it. I would never want anything else other than Bryan. But I still miss having girl roommates every now and then. The hard thing about that for me is, my friends always move on after a year, and I don't ever really get the same friends year after year. I think the longest I've held a friendship once I started college was a year and a half, and turns out, that friendship wasn't the best one in the end. (The friendship with Chance and Jenny is still going strong *crosses fingers*) I wasn't good at keeping friends in HS or middle school either. I had a best friend for most of HS yeah, but it still wasn't a good relationship. A lot of girls I interact with right now are in my major classes (only one class has not one, but TWO males in it), and at least 70% of them are single. They go off talking about dates and boyfriends and missionaries. I no longer have anything to say about that, and believe me, I'm glad. I just can't really talk to most of those girls cause A - most of them are 3 years younger than me (19 and that for some reason seems to make a huge difference to them since I'm in the "20s"), and B - I'm married, so that automatically makes me older. I guess the point of this pointless rambling part is, I wish I could have married friends that were closer, that I could just grab a lunch with or a dinenr with since Bryan works at night. (I also hate being home alone, I lock the door when I'm home alone, even if I'm really close to the door that I can hear someone, and even though I love in happy mormonville, I lock it cause I'm afraid my hearing won't pick anything up, and cause of weird experiences in the past few years at my apartment). 
I guess I just needed to get that off my chest. 
I'm happy, really really happy. Bryan makes me laugh and smile and feel good all the time. Just some things that I miss, just like Bryan misses Brazil, I miss my family, my music, my dancing and long for friends. 
I'm sure this seems petty and whiny or whatever else it may be, but I just needed to get it off my chest as I don't take to change well, at all. 
Just be sure not to get me wrong, I am happy :) More than I've ever been, and satisifed and content with so many things in my life, just being human and wanting a little more. :)