So I was posting all the past posts, I could not believe how many whiny posts and frustrated posts I had. Including the last couple about my qualifying exam. I'm just so dang nervous about it since it determines if I get to continue with my master's program or not. However, one thing did cheer me up a lot while I was prepping for it. Kiernan. Seriously, he's just so cute. He made me smile every time I looked at him as he would smile almost every single time I looked at him. It was as if he knew I needed to be smiled at to help me relax and not just go into a mental breakdown. He really is an awesome baby, and we truly are blessed.
I haven't posted pictures of him in awhile, there are two reasons for this. We accidentally broke Bryan's camera :( And I thought my camera was lost for good. Bryan just found it the other day, so now I need to start getting back into my picture taking habits of him.
Kiernan just turned 3 months this past Friday. 3 whole months! I've heard people talk about how time flies all the time, but I didn't really realize it until we had Kiernan. I cannot believe how big he is, how alert he is, how strong he is, how etc etc etc. We are seriously so happy with him, and I cannot imagine my life without him. I was afraid for a long time that we were having him too soon, with both of us in school full time, with quite a bit of schooling left, and me working. But it's honestly worked out for the best. It's just made my testimony grow stronger that God really does know what he's doing, and he'll help us out and make things work if we follow him and his plans.
The Qualifying Exam is over. People ask me "doesn't it feel great?" well...no. I've taken it once before and barely failed. I felt great about it last time, was sure I passed. The day I get home from Brazil, after crying for a couple of hours because I wouldn't see Bryan for 3 months and I was all hormonal from being pregnant, an had been flying for a good 30 something hours, spent 12 hours alone in the peru airport, after all that, I got the letter saying I failed, and an e-mail from my program director saying she was concerned. yeah, it was a very bad day to return to reality. So no, I don't feel better :) I won't feel better until I get letter that says I pass. Unfortunately this is my last chance. I did my best, I know I did. I took the 6 week workshop to try and help my writing skills, I took my time writing it. I stopped after every paragraph to proofread, proofread the whole thing on the computer, printed it out, proofread it again, printed it out again, and proofread it one last time. Then handed it in. We had 3 hours to write 6 pages, with citations, in APA style and to sound extremely smart as if we know what we're talking about. It was very difficult to go on for 6 pages about collaboration, but I did it (many thanks to mom here for giving me help while I was researching for the 24 hours before the test that we had when we got the question). I did what I could, and if I didn't pass, then it's truly just because I'm not supposed to be there. But dang...I want to pass :)
Work is great. Bryan is awesome, he's been picking up where I've been slacking off on housework this week, despite the amount of homework that I know he has (which is loads). He's awesome, and I hope he knows how much I really appreciate it.
We did go to sacrament today, but came home as I was feeling sick (cold's coming back), and needed to sleep. I feel a little better in the exhaustion area, but worse in the feeling sick area. Hopefully this passes soon, and I don't give it to Kiernan. He' sjust too cute to be sick! :)
Yeah, watch out for RSV. Luckily Jakob hasn't gotten it, but he has been battling an ear infection due to a cold. These babies can get sick! I hope you make it into the masters program. I know you've worked hard. good luck!
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