This has been a long long week. Student teaching really takes it out of me, and since I'm in a slump, I have no motivation to do any homework or work. So it's really hard to get going on it. My mentor teacher has also been driving me crazy, and I actually switch mentor teachers after next week, which is good and bad. Good that I won't be dealing directly with the one I hav enow, although she requested that she borrow me in the afternoons and was given permission to do so. Bad, I have to start all over again with learning 60 more names of kids (I switch both morning and afternoon session due to first teacher's class going off track [year round school]), and get the feel of management for the class. I'm not entirely excited. yet, I will be able to see two more perspectives on teaching kindergarten, which is quite valuable for my leraning experience...just...three weeks? man. Right now I also have to write detailed lesson plans for everything I teach, and I set up anywhere from 8-10 stations a week right now. Each lesson plan is at least 2-3 pages long. Then I also have homework on the side. Not fun. I also have an independent study class. I have to take the final by June 8th (which is my LASt day of student teaching), lucky me. I gotta figure out how to work that into the office hours of the testing place for independent study testing since they have normal office hours M-F 8-5 (I'm gone from 730am-6pm due to student teaching 45 minutes away and traffic being nasty).
My apartment complex finally decided to pave the parking lot after half a year of it being torn away and sitting there with gravel. Problem? Bryan's car was in it and it doesn't work. Luckily we hav enice home teachers, Bryan called in a favor for me since I suck on the phone, and the hometeachers came over with a couple of other guys to push Bryan's car out on to the street. Need to make them cookies and such. Now I have to park aways away, which I wouldn't normally complain all that much, it just adds one more thing to this :)
Bryan's car doesn't work because of something to do with the security system being screwy on his car, so I've been having to drive my car. The check engine light came on last week (his car broke down the night before he left). I just took it in today, need tune up, spark plugs, wiring, and engine coolant sensor replaced. Naturally...we just have (sarcasm) TONS of money to take care of it all. I'm tired of cars, but I HAVE to have a working car. if I miss a day of student teaching I have to make it up in the end, but which I do not want to do cause then I would have to prolong flying to CA to see Bryan, and possibly will not be able to make up all the days and not pass the course. That's just not an option since I've signed the contract with my internship last night.
I also need to get stuff for a newsletter done for a national organization. i've been doing friendly follow up e-mails and such for people who owe me articles, but nothing so far. It's frustrating. This newsletter has to be done printed and ready to be in my hand by Friday. I also need to get together some minutes done for another organization, but at least this one can wait a little bit...hopefully.
Not having Bryan here just makes it harder cause I can't really vent to him when I need to vent...right away. Over the phone sucks cause I can't hear that well, and I have no tty or landline to use a tty with. So e-mail or texting is basically my only option, so his voice...eh, don't get to really hear it all that much and when i do, I misunderstand or can't understand a lot of what he says. it's really frustrating. I was doing really well this week until last night, when it hit me, it's only been one week. I don't know how military people deal with the length of time their spouse may be gone.
Also, seems like Bryan just doesn't have time/patience to listen to me about this right now.
I also feel like I'm just making Bryan's time worse in CA by trying/needing to talk to him. Just feels like everything is my fault right now.
I've been struggling a lot lately with prayers and scriptures. I try every night, and normally do make it, but it's usually quite short. I want to go to the temple...but...my car.....yeah. *sigh*
I just wanna curl up in a bed and go away.
....yeah, major whine post and probably comes off as immature to most of you
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