Walls

Today is a day of walls.
First off, Bryan decided to explain to me what "breaking the fourth wall" meant. It was a technique that was used in "Are You Being Served?" Man...I really do enjoy that show, so funny. (I've also enjoyed the only other British show I've ever watched, What Not to Wear. The American one just isn't the same).

So with that wall out of the way, and broken, here's my other wall. I'm done. I've been running into a mental wall for like a week, and I've just hit it, multiple times. I'm tired. I'm burnt out. Work wise and school wise, I'm tired. Family wise, I'm so loving it. On Monday, May 3rd, after 7:00 PM, I will officially be halfway through my program. That would be exciting right? Except...I'm already tired. Now, don't get me wrong, I do not doubt that I'm supposed to be here. I spent 6 years at BYU getting my bachelor's and my state teaching license. I'm now just finishing up the final leg of year 2 at the U of U getting my master's. I still have a year and a half before I'm done. five more semesters. this means I will have been in school, since graduating high school, for a grand total of 18 semesters. This coming from a girl who never dreamed or even really thought of going to college seriously. (that's another story, ever want to hear it, let me know and I'll type it out).

So this figurative motivational wall is not this never ending wall right? I can climb this "rocky" wall and make it to the top and just fling myself over and cruise on down right? I hope so. Well...I know so. I'm here for a reason, and it's never ever felt wrong, and it's always felt right. So, yeah, it's just gonna have to work out because I listened and came here. But boy....it ain't easy with a kid around, a cute one at that! I just want to stay at home and play with him all the time!

Now for literal walls. I've stubbed my toe a few times today. It hurt. I stubbed them on the corner of walls. I seriously have issues with walls (and doors). This all just made me think of the time where I broke my toe running into a wall. yes, trust me, it is very possible. Played racquet ball for the first (and last) time the night before the new winter semester started. Ran into a wall, broke my big toe, ended up on crutches since I broke it right where it connects to my foot, missed two classes the next day because I couldn't....crutch (I couldn't think of another verb to describe my transportation around campus) myself fast enough to get to the two classes....in the snow and ice. Then I met one more wall who I shall name the ground (yes I'm counting it a wall), in which I met, face to face, when my crutches gave out on me under some ice.

walls love me.

5 months

Kiernan turned 5 months yesterday, where does the time go?

He can roll like a pro, stay sitting up for quite a few seconds, reach and grab things, purposefully manipulate items, scoot a little while on his tummy. He loves cereal and pureed bananas, and we can't seem to feed him fast enough!

these are cell phone pics because it was what was closest to me at the time.

From 5-6 Months

From 5-6 Months

Kiernan

YEs my life does revolve around him :)


OMG! EASTER MORNING! SO EXCITED!

From 4-5 months

Kiernan's Easter Bucket

From 4-5 months

Seriously mom? Listerine? Gross.

From 4-5 months

This is a CHOCOLATE duck. White chocolate that's colored obviously, but it's chocolate. I did not realize it was chocolate, I thought it was a rubber duck all along. I was planning on giving him a bath and letting him play with it...good thing Bryan sniffed it and bit it before I did!

From 4-5 months

We got a jumper from my brother's family. He loves it, and fell asleep in it after jumping so much the first time he was in it!

From 4-5 months

A video of him falling asleep :)

From 4-5 months

A video of him enjoying the jumper

From 4-5 months

A video of him rolling like a pro!

From 4-5 months

Life in general

I'm tired. That pretty much sums up how things are right now :)

School is going well. Getting my projects done, slowly, but surely. I should be doing more homework, but I've reached a point where I honestly do not care at the moment. I'm hoping by Monday, I'll feel differently. don't get me wrong, i'm still attempting to do my homework :)

Work is work. But the two combined is what makes me tired, along with just keeping the house in order. It's not hard, at all, just time consuming, and I feel like I'm just running out of energy. :) It is coming close to the end of the semester after all. My last final will be on May 4th, then I don't have classes again until May 18th. I'm definitely looking forward to that.

We went to California last month for spring break to visit Bryan's mom and step dad. It was fun, and I'm glad they got to see Kiernan. I'm also glad I'm home. I'm not one to like being away from my home for a long period of time, I've always been that way. Most vacations I take, are ideally 5 days at the very most. I prefer about 3 days in general. I just like being home, since it feels like I never am home in between school, work and running errands when I am not at school or work. Anyway, it was good :) They have a dog, a great pyreneese (sp?) and he loved seeing Kiernan too.

From 3-4 months

That's the dog, Monty with Kiernan. It was cute, he was like that with Kiernan for a good portion of time. Abbey wasn't so cuddly with Kiernan, but she did like him too. She's just such a cutie!

From Spring Break

And I was going to type more, but Bryan just informed me that he's finally ready for bed (and Kiernan is asleep!).

We mostly just hung out with Bryan's mom and stepdad, and went out to eat a couple of times. We did get a chance to go to the postsecret thing they were having in a nearby town for free even. Just happened to be there at the right time. So that was fun, other than, we just relaxed at home. This is when Bryan got addicted to this show called Mad Men, I do enjoy it too. We finished the first season, and the second season i believe is playing now, but we've missed the first couple of episodes I think. Hopefully we'll be able to catch up soon....not that we really have the time anyway :)

Short post, but responses needed

So...
For May, June and July Bryan and I are taking summer classes. We've got our class schedules set. Unfortunately they're not flexible so we can't really work around each other's schedules. This means I need a lot of babysitting for this time. 23 days of it to be exact. This makes me sad, but you have to do what you have to do right? At least none of the classes conflict with work, so I'll only be needing babysitters on ALL of the days *I* have class, because they just coincidentally conflict with some of the days Bryan has class.

My question:
How much would you pay a babysitter to watch a 5, or 6, or 7month Old (since he'll be that old during those months) for 3 hours? 4 hours? that's how long it will be for most of the days, except for five days where it will be more than that. 2 days of 6 hours, and 2 days of 9 hours. if it makes a difference, the times will be 5-7:30 PM (2 1/2 hours, but would pay for a full 3 hours), 4-8 PM (4 hours), and 11AM-5PM (6 hours)and 11 AM -8PM (9 hours).


These days will be from May 18th to July 30th.


and if you're interested let me know, e-mail me and tell me what you charge :)
Thanks in advance.

Prayers

I woke up to three texts this morning. The long and short of it, my grandma is in the hospital. This is the grandma I basically grew up with being a second set of parents. She's in the hospital with some heart problems, and is stable now, But they don't know what's going on yet. Prayer would be appreciated. Many thanks.

Relief at last!

I was supposed to received the results to my qualifying exam anytime from two saturdays ago to last saturday. I still hadn't received it, until today. I am so glad, that the first word on the letter, in bold, said "Congratulations!" I may now start my graduate advisory committee, and continue to take classes (wasn't allowed to take some classes until I passed the exam). So, it's official, I am definitely well on my way to finishing school for another 5 1/2 semesters :) (I've done 4 1/2 so far!). YAY!