Well this past week has been exhausting, tiring, busy, and every other tired word you can think of.
This is kind of a long post so put behind a cut
I finished all my finals. I got my solo dance choreographed and I think I did ok on it. I think I got at least a solid C+ in my hard class where I was worried I was gonna flunk, so that's good (can totally relate to chance on this level). I think I did pretty decent this semester, I'm hoping to get my grades by the end of this week.
I also moved to my parent's house as indicated by my previous post (was not an easy thing). Got done moving everything out and cleaing my apartment by midnight thursday night, then i got home at 130 am friday morning, and had to unpack some stuff before going to bed. Then woke up at 530 to unpack more stuff before leaving for the weekend to idaho. Went to bryan's friend stephanie's graduation, that was ok, graduations are dull for me and i'm hoping i can find some way to entertain myself at mine. :)
then bryan and i left to idaho. I had a blast and it was a well needed break despite what some may think it was for me while i was there :) I loved being with friends, as i really don't have anymore now that i'm engaged, moved home and so forth....yeah, not much of a social life anymore, so it was a good comfort knowing that these two are still there for bryan and i (you guys rock).
We had a lot of fun there, friday we ate out and watched 2 or 3 episodes of 24, and mainly just chilled (oh and played apples to apples. way fun!).
Then saturday, Jenny and I went shopping while Bry and Chance were at the temple in Idaho Falls doing a sessin, that was fun, but tiring, we went back and just kinda relaxed, then alter that night we went to a place called riot zone, a buckaroo thing there was fun, especially when i got to see bry and chance on it, wish i had my camera for that! Go-kart racing was fun, I won...of course :). Then the inflatable playgrounds were fun as well, then bry and i did the buckaroo, he claims to have let me win.....but i think i did win, or would have even if he did let me win as i'm a cowgirl at heart :D. we went home and we were all tired and we watched pay it forward (i would really like to own that movie, i love it, seen it three times and cried each time).
Sunday we kidna slept in and went to sacrament, after sacrament we went around and took some pictures of bry and i (will post link in a sec). That wa fun, thugh yu can tell I'm tired, I think my eyes are just half open, heh, but oh well :) and some of those pics I know bry will kill me for posting them, ie, some of the kissing ones *Grins* but i think they're cute. Then after that we played a very brief game of trivial pursuit and bry made dinner for us, then we headed home, and i got home around 130 this morning.
I was ready to just sit down and be home, I needed time to breathe. So I didn't do any work today, but I hav ebeen cleaning and running errands and unpacking more stuff, I think I just have...3 or 4 more boxes to go (compared to the 7 or 8i've already done!). So I should get that done over the next couple of days.
It was nice, I slept in until about 1030, and i slept HARD, I guess my sister woke me up and asked if she could wear one of my shirts, and i told her yes, but i don't really remember that, but oh well, i was just flat out dead. I'm gona head to bed now and get some more sleep in so that i'll feel more ready and fresh to start working and finish unpacking tmrw hopefully.
Overall right now, I'm incredibly happy. I'm engaged, I've got the sumer off from school, I have a job, I got accepted into my program, I have good friends (even if they are few in numbers, they're still the best), I'm with my family, I didn't realize how happy I really was going to be being at home. I think part of it is because I've realized this is the last time I'll ever live at home with my family ever again. But it's been way nice, and it's been great to be around the animals too. *sigh* So happy :) Just need to lose 40 lbs, get a great hairstyle, and a great tan and I'm good to go and perfect with life :)
Anyhow, here are the pics of Bry and I over the weekend :)
http://s21.photobucket.com/albums/b267/slvrchic83/Bry%20and%20Em%20Pictures/
Hope everyone is doing well and let me know if you have a favorite picture :D and feel free to laugh at some of them :) I know I did :D
Doing a one man move SUCKS! got up at 630 to help mom with some work (which I did until 230 this morning as well) before she left to go to AZ, then the rest of the move began and cleaning the apartment. I just got back and finished unloading my car and it's now 140 AM....and I have to get up in 4 hours, starting to wonder if it's worth it to go to bed and if i should just start unpacking more stuff, but then i'll wake my siblings up. Perhaps I'll just take a nice long hot bath...yeah that sounds pretty good...
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happy dance*
I'm done with my finals, and I now know for sure I passed my hardest class, Nutrition with either a C+ or a B-, I was so scared I would end up with a D there, I did many prayers of thanks! I'm so happy to be done with finals now I can focus on work and a billion other things I need to do (don't forget wedding planning too!)
*sad walk*
I now have to start packing up my stuff at my apartment to move back to my parents. This is sad for a couple of reasons. A - I have to move, I hate moving. B - I'm gonna miss having good roommates and the total freedom of living here. C - I will no longer be near my friends. D - I'm going back to a family ward (the singles ward at my parent's place is creepy *shudders*) E - my family is not bad at all, but there are times we have our arguments, and I hate those more than anything, I'm not looking forward to that.
But on the plus side
A - It's a change, I think it's time I had a slight change and different environment. B - I love my sisters to death and that means more GIRLS NIGHT OUT! C - I still have Bryan and I spend most of my free time with him anyway :) and more boating at the lake and doing gardening in the garden! YAY! D - I won't have to worry about creepy guys hitting on me at a family ward! :D and I'll get the ladies to talk about my plans for the wedding for sure, that's always fun :) E - This is the last time I'll truly get to be with my family again, so it's worth all the little fights we have, plus my brother who is in Minnesota is coming back to live with the family as well for the summer, and I can't wait to see him again. F - It means I'm getting closer to being married! G - I'll save myself oodles of money.
So yeah I guess the pros weight out the cons :)
Ok...wow
A guy I dated a couple of years ago, for this sake let's call him Bob. Got married a year ago I think, and it was a civil marriage to a girl who had a son that was already 2 or 3 I believe. All along I've heard rumors that they've been having problems in their marriage and stuff, but as you know, rumors get exaggerated and so forth, and I didn't pay any attention to it. Well, today Bob messaged me asking if he could talk to me in person, (in a public place of course), and I told him with that I might not be around tonight, but it depended on when a certain person got back to me about work. So he just started going off in the message, saying he thinks he's about to have a divorce with his wife, they've been separated three times thus far, right now is the third time, and they were separated on Thursday. Right before that he got so angry I guess he says he lost control and hit his wife causing a bloody nose and split lip. He doesn't know what to do...so what am I supposed to do? He's begging her for one more chance, and she says that he's given her many chances (I believe that if they've been separated a few times). He's deaf, and he hasn't had a very good life growing up. He lives off of SSI, which if anyone knows anything about it, is not nearly enough to support a family. He doesn't go to school or work. He's contacted a counselor at BYU, but there is no interpreter available since school is out is what the director said at the counselor department. he says he realizes he's selfish and needs to get his butt in gear by getting a job and finishing up school. What am I supposed to say to this?
If anyone has a California or Minnesota state quarter....I can give you two quarters in exchange for them or something like that! :D I just wanna keep this collection going, I'm amazed that I've been able to collect the 30 states I have now, just 20 more to go! :)
Life is good, made some realizations tonight, and realized I wasn't really looking at how truly belssed I am. I wasn't counting my blessings....now that I've counted a few, life is better :)
I hate struggling in life at times when it's a situation I can't handle. I want to get rid of contention I have towards some people, and I want contention that I see some people have for others. it bothers me a lot. I just read this in Stand a Little Taller:
"Thou shalt not avenge, nor bear any grudge against the children of thy people, but thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself: I am the Lord. - Leviticus 19:18
We speak of the fellowship of the Saints. This is and must be a very real thing. We must never permit this spirit of brotherhood and sisterhood to weaken. We must constantly cultivate it. Simply put, we must be friends. We must love and honor and respect and assist one another. Wherever Latter-Day Saints go, they are made welcome, because Latter-Day Saints are mutual believers in the divinity of the Lord Jesus Christ and engaged together in His great cause. We are one great family, eleven million strong."
That alone tells me I have a lot of work to do, take the previous entry, and this one, and plus many other flaws I may have....sometimes I wonder if I'll ever make it anywhere in life.
In good news, I just watched Practical Magic with my roommates, they had just started watching it as soon as I get back from hanging out with Bryan. It was good, I forgot how much I love that movie, anyone who dares to watch it with me is awesome :)
