Bryan and I went in for our 12 week visit today. I wasn't really sure what to expect. ultrasound or no? what am I doing today? what's she looking for? etc.
Well it was just the heart beat, once I saw the thing she was going to use, I was worried that I wouldn't be able to hear it, and would totally be bummed out if I couldn't.
She starts the heart detecting thing, and takes a couple of minutes to find it. I heard a lot of static, so that raised my hopes in being able to hear it. Then all of a sudden I heard a faint thump, and it was getting loud as she moved slower. It was so freaking cool to hear it! It, to me, sounded like a drum beating about twice as fast as my heart was beating. It was so clear, I almost wanted to check my own heart beat to make sure I wasn't just hearing my own, then I felt Bryan touch my foot, and I KNEW I really was hearing it. This made it so much more real! I still can't believe it, and still have the sound stuck in my head. So amazing! there really is something there!!
In other news, I talked to my doctor about how I've had this cold forever (5 weeks now, going on 6) she asked if I was sure it was a cold, and not allergies, so I described the symptoms I had 5 weeks ago, and how every morning I have so much drainage that I pretty much gag on it at some point. Then during the day I feel really sick, and this could be from the acid reflux I've been having and the drainage hasn't been helping either. I dry heave once in awhile because I feel like I'm gagging on it. Frankly, I'm sick of it. I told her about the food poisoning (especially since she was so concerned about my weight loss), and she nodded her head and seemed to understand that I really have been sick. Especially since with the food poisoning I had thrown up at least once every hour for ten hours straight (dropped 8 pounds during that time, as I couldn't really eat the next day, and barely ate the day after that). I had lost a couple of pounds before that, I chalked it up to my rise in thyroid medication, which does make sense. Out of those 10 pounds, I've gained about 7 back, so I wasn't worried about the weight gain, and neither was the doctor once I explained the sickness I've been going through.
I also explained to her that I have a hard time eating at night. This could be due to both the drainage and the reflux (I literally sit up in bed for about 10 minutes burping my way through, and can't breathe very for a bit when I lay down). Which could also explain the "slow" weight gain.
Life is never simple eh?
Anyway, after explaining this, she gave me antibiotics for the sinus stuff as it seems I've had a sinus infection all along (I'm totally saying told you so to someone right now). She said to see if it goes away in a few days, if not, then to start taking the antibiotics. I'm tempted to just start now to get ride of the drainage gagging in the morning. She also gave me some prescription stuff for acid reflux, I'm praying and hoping that it helps...a LOT. The thyroid level seems fine for now, she wants me to come in two weeks just for a blood lab test for a check up. Then I'll see her again at my 16 week visit, at which time we will schedule the first ultrasound and also find out the gender! We're very excited about that, especially since we'll be able to find out before Bryan goes to Brazil for three months. :) VERY VERY excited.
Anyway....there really is a baby inside of me...wow.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Baby
When did you find out that Emilie was pregnant? What was your first reaction? How did you feel?
I should note that she also asked that Bryan answer these as well, hence why my name is in some of the questions. :)
When did we find out?
Well, we have been actively trying and had suspected we were the previous month as I was super late. But obviously I wasn't pregnant in February. But the point is, we had been doing pregnancy tests everyday if I was even one day late (Bryan even made me take one five days before with those tests that say they can detect it early). The early pregnancy test gave me a negative. I didn't have my hopes up, but kept testing anyway when I was late. We tested Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of March 12, 13 and 14th. March 15th, Saturday, I had tested it in the morning. I saw a VERY VERY faint line. However, my sister was staying the night, and was getting up right when I was done testing, and I knew she had to get ready to go to a workshop. So I hurried and I hid it in my medicine drawer. I had to go somewhere that day, I had to go to a workshop or work that morning, something was going on. Then later on that day, around lunch time, I was having a girl's lunch with my friends Becky and Jen. We were there for hours, and I had actually forgotten about the test since I really didn't think I was.
When I got home, and made sure my sister wasn't home, I told Bryan "I think I MAY be pregnant." He didn't believe me, and I wasn't sure I believed it either. So I went to find the test in the bathroom (I couldn't remember where I put it). Meanwhile, my brother and his fiance come over to show us the ring. I didn't know this. I was in the bathroom making a whole lot of noise trying to find the test, and when I found it, I realized I heard some mumbling out in the frontroom. So I kept the test in the bathroom, but not without looking at it again. There was definitely a line, faint, but it was there. I was getting excited. I couldn't say anything to Bryan though because my brother and his fiance were right there, and they were there for about an hour. Finally they left, and I went and got the test and showed it to Bryan. He thought it was too faint. So we took another one, this time, in MY opinion, there was a definite line showing that I was pregnant. However, it was still too faint for Bryan, so he made me take another one...but wait! We don't have anymore! So what do we do? we go to the store and buy TWO DIFFERENT brands. I tested again (heaven knows how I was able to get that much liquid in me!), and yet, a little bit darker line. I knew it for sure the last time, and I thought Bryan would finally believe me. He still said "no way, it can't be, it's too faint!" So I took ANOTHER test that night. At this point, I was no longer feeling the excitement and jumping for joy feeling you see on tv. Bryan had pretty much ruined it for me (don't worry, he knows this). Guess what...that's right...it was positive YET AGAIN, but STILL too faint for Mr. Mulholland (ahem). So I said to give it a rest, and that I was pregnant, and that I would test again Sunday morning just to make sure. He seemed to feel better about that, I did not.
So I do test again Sunday morning, and naturally it comes out positive. He's still a little in disbelief here (and I'm still annoyed that he is, and that he just simply won't believe me). Then he informs me that we have to go to the doctor's to make sure. It was Sunday so we couldn't call the office, but we were going to my parents house, and we had told them that day as well, that's another entry.
So, on Monday, I made an appointment for later that week since I was due for an annual anyway. We get there, and tell the doctor that we had told the receptionist we wanted a pregnancy test. She looks surprised and says you think you are? I said well, I took FIVE...FIVE home pregnancy tests (while looking at Bryan), and they all came out positive! She basically said we didn't need the test, and that I was definitely pregnant if they all came out pregnant. BUT she would do the test anyway. We waited, I think, three days for the call. I wasn't worried because five pregnancy tests...that's pretty much proof enough there. It still wasn't for Bryan. So Bryan calls, and we find out the nurse had forgotten to call, (we were also calling about my thyroid to see if my meds were upped or not), and he FINALLY REALLY TRULY believes it. At this point, I finally got to stop being so annoyed with him for not believe me this entire time. :) So my FIRST reaction was "no way" then it turned to "I totally am!" then it turned to "Maybe I shouldn't be if Bryan doesn't believe me" to "AUGH, FINALLY he believes me!" to "this is unreal, and I can't believe I'm really pregnant", and now, often times I still feel that way, I just can't believe I am. I KNOW I am, but it's just so unreal.
So there ya go :)
I should note that she also asked that Bryan answer these as well, hence why my name is in some of the questions. :)
When did we find out?
Well, we have been actively trying and had suspected we were the previous month as I was super late. But obviously I wasn't pregnant in February. But the point is, we had been doing pregnancy tests everyday if I was even one day late (Bryan even made me take one five days before with those tests that say they can detect it early). The early pregnancy test gave me a negative. I didn't have my hopes up, but kept testing anyway when I was late. We tested Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of March 12, 13 and 14th. March 15th, Saturday, I had tested it in the morning. I saw a VERY VERY faint line. However, my sister was staying the night, and was getting up right when I was done testing, and I knew she had to get ready to go to a workshop. So I hurried and I hid it in my medicine drawer. I had to go somewhere that day, I had to go to a workshop or work that morning, something was going on. Then later on that day, around lunch time, I was having a girl's lunch with my friends Becky and Jen. We were there for hours, and I had actually forgotten about the test since I really didn't think I was.
When I got home, and made sure my sister wasn't home, I told Bryan "I think I MAY be pregnant." He didn't believe me, and I wasn't sure I believed it either. So I went to find the test in the bathroom (I couldn't remember where I put it). Meanwhile, my brother and his fiance come over to show us the ring. I didn't know this. I was in the bathroom making a whole lot of noise trying to find the test, and when I found it, I realized I heard some mumbling out in the frontroom. So I kept the test in the bathroom, but not without looking at it again. There was definitely a line, faint, but it was there. I was getting excited. I couldn't say anything to Bryan though because my brother and his fiance were right there, and they were there for about an hour. Finally they left, and I went and got the test and showed it to Bryan. He thought it was too faint. So we took another one, this time, in MY opinion, there was a definite line showing that I was pregnant. However, it was still too faint for Bryan, so he made me take another one...but wait! We don't have anymore! So what do we do? we go to the store and buy TWO DIFFERENT brands. I tested again (heaven knows how I was able to get that much liquid in me!), and yet, a little bit darker line. I knew it for sure the last time, and I thought Bryan would finally believe me. He still said "no way, it can't be, it's too faint!" So I took ANOTHER test that night. At this point, I was no longer feeling the excitement and jumping for joy feeling you see on tv. Bryan had pretty much ruined it for me (don't worry, he knows this). Guess what...that's right...it was positive YET AGAIN, but STILL too faint for Mr. Mulholland (ahem). So I said to give it a rest, and that I was pregnant, and that I would test again Sunday morning just to make sure. He seemed to feel better about that, I did not.
So I do test again Sunday morning, and naturally it comes out positive. He's still a little in disbelief here (and I'm still annoyed that he is, and that he just simply won't believe me). Then he informs me that we have to go to the doctor's to make sure. It was Sunday so we couldn't call the office, but we were going to my parents house, and we had told them that day as well, that's another entry.
So, on Monday, I made an appointment for later that week since I was due for an annual anyway. We get there, and tell the doctor that we had told the receptionist we wanted a pregnancy test. She looks surprised and says you think you are? I said well, I took FIVE...FIVE home pregnancy tests (while looking at Bryan), and they all came out positive! She basically said we didn't need the test, and that I was definitely pregnant if they all came out pregnant. BUT she would do the test anyway. We waited, I think, three days for the call. I wasn't worried because five pregnancy tests...that's pretty much proof enough there. It still wasn't for Bryan. So Bryan calls, and we find out the nurse had forgotten to call, (we were also calling about my thyroid to see if my meds were upped or not), and he FINALLY REALLY TRULY believes it. At this point, I finally got to stop being so annoyed with him for not believe me this entire time. :) So my FIRST reaction was "no way" then it turned to "I totally am!" then it turned to "Maybe I shouldn't be if Bryan doesn't believe me" to "AUGH, FINALLY he believes me!" to "this is unreal, and I can't believe I'm really pregnant", and now, often times I still feel that way, I just can't believe I am. I KNOW I am, but it's just so unreal.
So there ya go :)
Monday, May 5, 2008
It may be hormones...
Wow, annoyed.
I had to go to a faculty meeting today, and since the program I work for is so small, I don't see over half the faculty...ever. One of them is someone I know quite well and see almost once a month.
I had announced to her that I was pregnant. Her response?
"Oh wow! Congratulations! I wasn't going to say anything, but I was thinking to myself that the new job must be very hard on you" As she proceeds to look me up and down basically referring to my weight.
I was so tempted to say "look lady, I've actually lost a few pounds, thank you very much!"
Sucks to know you look fatter, and not pregnant. Hmph.
I had to go to a faculty meeting today, and since the program I work for is so small, I don't see over half the faculty...ever. One of them is someone I know quite well and see almost once a month.
I had announced to her that I was pregnant. Her response?
"Oh wow! Congratulations! I wasn't going to say anything, but I was thinking to myself that the new job must be very hard on you" As she proceeds to look me up and down basically referring to my weight.
I was so tempted to say "look lady, I've actually lost a few pounds, thank you very much!"
Sucks to know you look fatter, and not pregnant. Hmph.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Baby update
I have already announced to pretty much everyone that I'm pregnant, but now the detailed posts will follow.
FYI for those who are non LDS or religious, I'm a very spiritual person and a strong believer in the LDS faith, so I may say a lot of things regarding feeling the spirit, etc. when it comes to decisions and such. This is your fair warning. :)
Describe the events leading up to the decision to have a baby
It's actually an interesting story. We had been talking about having children for a long time now, but had always talked about how it would be after I completed my Masters (Master's?). This means we would have waited until Summer of 2010 to have our first. That would also mean I would be 27 years old, and that was just a little later than I really wanted to start, but we had, at the time (first year of marriage) felt it was the right thing to do. We definitely knew we wanted kids though.
We went up to Idaho to visit our fabulous friends Chance and Jenny. I believe this was in June or July, I cannot remember which month, but it was summer of 2007. It was before Chance and Jenny had moved, and it was when they had started packing up to move to GA. I want to say July, but I could very well be wrong. ANYWAY, back to the point. Chance and Jenny had tickets to see a comedian with another couple, or something, so Bryan and I had gone to see a movie. The movie was Shrek 3. SO many kids were in the auidence, we were literally surrounded by them. However, we loved it. We were all smiles, and just loved the kids in the audience. I don't know about Bryan, but during the movie, I just had this REALLY strong feeling that we weren't supposed to wait until I was done with my degree to start having kids. It was literally right smack in the movie that I felt this. I looked at Bryan right when he looked at me, and we smiled. I had a feeling he was thinking about the same thing, but I didn't say anything. I had figured this would be something I would bring up when we got back to Utah. When the movie is over, we get int he car to go back to Chance and Jenny's place, and Bryan says something along the lines of "so...do you think three years is too long to wait?" I laughed, and had told him I was thinking the same thing. We had discussed that we didn't really think we should be waiting anymore. We said we would start trying when we got home, or at least talk about it more seriously.
Well a few months went along, and I no longer had insurance, that kind of put a damper into our plans, since Bryan no longer had insurance either. But, we found some programs we could afford later on, and had started trying around November, maybe December. That was when we figured we should start trying. We did basal body temperatures, I kept track of my cycles, then January we decided to buy one of those ovulation predictor kits. We didn't get pregnant in January, obviously, but I was late, very late, and we figured we might be on the right track. So we bought another one for February, and it was the end of February/beginning of March.
Fast forward to March 15th, the day of the pregnancy tests. :) Yes that's right...TestSSSSSS. That's another post :)
FYI for those who are non LDS or religious, I'm a very spiritual person and a strong believer in the LDS faith, so I may say a lot of things regarding feeling the spirit, etc. when it comes to decisions and such. This is your fair warning. :)
Describe the events leading up to the decision to have a baby
It's actually an interesting story. We had been talking about having children for a long time now, but had always talked about how it would be after I completed my Masters (Master's?). This means we would have waited until Summer of 2010 to have our first. That would also mean I would be 27 years old, and that was just a little later than I really wanted to start, but we had, at the time (first year of marriage) felt it was the right thing to do. We definitely knew we wanted kids though.
We went up to Idaho to visit our fabulous friends Chance and Jenny. I believe this was in June or July, I cannot remember which month, but it was summer of 2007. It was before Chance and Jenny had moved, and it was when they had started packing up to move to GA. I want to say July, but I could very well be wrong. ANYWAY, back to the point. Chance and Jenny had tickets to see a comedian with another couple, or something, so Bryan and I had gone to see a movie. The movie was Shrek 3. SO many kids were in the auidence, we were literally surrounded by them. However, we loved it. We were all smiles, and just loved the kids in the audience. I don't know about Bryan, but during the movie, I just had this REALLY strong feeling that we weren't supposed to wait until I was done with my degree to start having kids. It was literally right smack in the movie that I felt this. I looked at Bryan right when he looked at me, and we smiled. I had a feeling he was thinking about the same thing, but I didn't say anything. I had figured this would be something I would bring up when we got back to Utah. When the movie is over, we get int he car to go back to Chance and Jenny's place, and Bryan says something along the lines of "so...do you think three years is too long to wait?" I laughed, and had told him I was thinking the same thing. We had discussed that we didn't really think we should be waiting anymore. We said we would start trying when we got home, or at least talk about it more seriously.
Well a few months went along, and I no longer had insurance, that kind of put a damper into our plans, since Bryan no longer had insurance either. But, we found some programs we could afford later on, and had started trying around November, maybe December. That was when we figured we should start trying. We did basal body temperatures, I kept track of my cycles, then January we decided to buy one of those ovulation predictor kits. We didn't get pregnant in January, obviously, but I was late, very late, and we figured we might be on the right track. So we bought another one for February, and it was the end of February/beginning of March.
Fast forward to March 15th, the day of the pregnancy tests. :) Yes that's right...TestSSSSSS. That's another post :)
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Update
IEPs are done for the year, yay!
Got a summer job for sure, YAY!
Just sent in my passport to the visa place to get my visa for brazil, yay!
10 weeks along now...weird. Everything is great so far, no problems, no actual morning sickness things. Just don't feel good if I don't eat often. Thyroid was really low again when i got a pregnant, they've upped the meds twice now, we'll find out if it's enough in two weeks, at my next check up. That just basically means I'm exhausted all the time.
two finals left, YAY!
Had food poisoning over the weekend, so not fun. Still don't feel quite all the way better yet, but hey, i'm not puking anymore, that's a plus.
Yeah, I know, lame bullet list, but I'm tired :)
Got a summer job for sure, YAY!
Just sent in my passport to the visa place to get my visa for brazil, yay!
10 weeks along now...weird. Everything is great so far, no problems, no actual morning sickness things. Just don't feel good if I don't eat often. Thyroid was really low again when i got a pregnant, they've upped the meds twice now, we'll find out if it's enough in two weeks, at my next check up. That just basically means I'm exhausted all the time.
two finals left, YAY!
Had food poisoning over the weekend, so not fun. Still don't feel quite all the way better yet, but hey, i'm not puking anymore, that's a plus.
Yeah, I know, lame bullet list, but I'm tired :)
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Bragging
I love compliments, who doesn't?
I've been (ETA, it should say never been, not been been, leaving it so you can see case in point :) ) been confident of my writing skills, as I know all too well that my vocabulary is below average of what it should be compared to people who are at my level of education (getting their masters degree). In fact, I swear my sister who is a high school senior has a better sense of writing than I do when it comes to vocabulary, style, etc.
Recently, I had turned in a research paper for a pre-read. I was nervous about it as I didn't follow the professor's guidelines entirely, but turned it in that way anyway since I felt I had what I needed to fill 5 pages, and not go beyond (I ended up going 6...ahem).
In class this past wednesday, our professor had announced that she had given our papers to a professional editor to look over our papers for apa style and grammar stuff. I expected a TON of marks on my paper. To my surprise, there were only a few, some of which I had expected since I wasn't sure of how to do it write (looking at an APA manual can just take too darn long sometimes). I was very pleased and proud. We still had to wait for our professor to edit the content of our papers.
Today, I got this e-mail from my professor:
"Emilie,
I wanted to tell you that my editor friend thought your paper was very well done. She used the term, "of high quality". I have made some suggestions so look them over. ( tried to put them in the paper could not get it to save the track changes.) You have a very professional style of writing. I hope you consider doing research and publishing in your area of interest in the future. If you have further questions let me know."
See...I am doing something write, and I am supposed to be here....now to just figure out how to do work, school and a baby all at once for fall and winter and summer next year....hmm
I've been (ETA, it should say never been, not been been, leaving it so you can see case in point :) ) been confident of my writing skills, as I know all too well that my vocabulary is below average of what it should be compared to people who are at my level of education (getting their masters degree). In fact, I swear my sister who is a high school senior has a better sense of writing than I do when it comes to vocabulary, style, etc.
Recently, I had turned in a research paper for a pre-read. I was nervous about it as I didn't follow the professor's guidelines entirely, but turned it in that way anyway since I felt I had what I needed to fill 5 pages, and not go beyond (I ended up going 6...ahem).
In class this past wednesday, our professor had announced that she had given our papers to a professional editor to look over our papers for apa style and grammar stuff. I expected a TON of marks on my paper. To my surprise, there were only a few, some of which I had expected since I wasn't sure of how to do it write (looking at an APA manual can just take too darn long sometimes). I was very pleased and proud. We still had to wait for our professor to edit the content of our papers.
Today, I got this e-mail from my professor:
"Emilie,
I wanted to tell you that my editor friend thought your paper was very well done. She used the term, "of high quality". I have made some suggestions so look them over. ( tried to put them in the paper could not get it to save the track changes.) You have a very professional style of writing. I hope you consider doing research and publishing in your area of interest in the future. If you have further questions let me know."
See...I am doing something write, and I am supposed to be here....now to just figure out how to do work, school and a baby all at once for fall and winter and summer next year....hmm
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Seriously now
So...I'm a pre-school teacher for deaf children at a deaf school (I'm deaf myself). I'm trying to arrange a field trip, so I call the place to make reservations through relay. The woman who answers the call tells me that the process for reservations is too lengthy to do through relay, and needs to talk to someone who can hear on the phone in order to do this.
Yeah, I'm pretty mad at this point.
I explain that most of the faculty at the school are deaf.
Well then we can just fax back and forth.
I was still too mad and hung up, but I still have to do this stupid reservation.
Seriously, I can't help that I'm deaf and have to go through relay....nice way to keep business.
Yeah, I'm pretty mad at this point.
I explain that most of the faculty at the school are deaf.
Well then we can just fax back and forth.
I was still too mad and hung up, but I still have to do this stupid reservation.
Seriously, I can't help that I'm deaf and have to go through relay....nice way to keep business.
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